feelings. ㅤ ( idol producer )

fifty three.

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fifty three.

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ㅤit was the 5th of may and a month had passed since the finale. even if it had only been a month, a lot had happened in that period of time.

ㅤi had finally had a proper comeback. i had waited a long time for that moment, since i injured my knee, and i had finally made it. i was going to be promoting it for a fortnight and i couldn't be happier.

ㅤi had gone back to have my knee checked at the hospital. it turned out that it was nothing serious and that with medicine it would go away so i didn't worry.

ㅤand, as for the whole yanjun thing, i didn't know how it happened, but nothing bad happened. yanjun told me that he had talked to his company and that, although they hadn't been very enthusiastic either, they had told him that nothing was wrong as long as he focused on his career as a new nine percent member, but that we would have to be very careful not to reveal it. our two companies talked to each other and came to an agreement, saying that they would let us continue dating.

ㅤi couldn't be happier to hear all that. the only problem we would have to deal with would be the distance, but the worst was already over.

ㅤand the distance wasn't a big problem either because i was considering moving to china. although i was still unsure about it so i couldn't make any decisions yet. at the moment i was just worrying about the comeback and that everything would work out so i didn't think too much about it.

ㅤit had been four days since my song had been released and three since i had started promoting it in music shows. however, until two days later i wouldn't have any schedule so i decided to visit the boys. on may 5th the first fan meeting would start and then they would be until august doing it in different cities.

ㅤas it was the first time since the finale of idol producer, i thought about attending. i wanted to show them my support and use the opportunity to see them again. so i took a plane and flew to shanghai to attend the fan meeting.

ㅤi asked cheng xiao and jieqiong if they wanted to go with me. jieqiong was getting ready for a comeback so she couldn't go, but cheng xiao accepted and came with me. we also told the staff so they would know we were there, but we didn't say anything to the boys in order to make it a surprise.

ㅤwe both attended the fan meeting and many fans recognized us, despite having covered us with hats and masks. i was very surprised to see that so many people had attended to see the boys.

ㅤthe fan meeting was great and very funny. i was very happy to see them start like nine percent and see them all together on stage, dancing and singing together. when it ended and the fans started to leave, the staff came to pick us up and took us to the backstage to say hello to the guys.

ㅤthey had no idea about anything, i was looking forward to their reaction after seeing us there.

ㅤthe boys were about to start packing up and then leave to rest when the staff member who was with us opened the door of the room they were in. cheng xiao and i entered and everyone looked at us in surprise.

ㅤ"xinyue? cheng xiao?" justin asked in confusion.

ㅤ"no more, no less" i answered, laughing, approaching him and giving him a hug as a greeting. "hey, nine percent!"

ㅤ"why are you here?" xukun asked.

ㅤ"we wanted to see you" cheng xiao answered.

ㅤ"xukun!!!" i then ran to him and hugged him, making him laugh. "it's been so long"

ㅤxukun laughed. "long? it's only been one month"

ㅤ"she's been talking the whole way about how much she wanted to see you" cheng xiao responded. "you don't know how excited she was"

ㅤ"hey, xinyue" yanjun then called me. "what about me?" i parted from xukun and looked at him.

ㅤyanjun was sitting on one of the chairs, staring at me.

ㅤ"the best for the end" i said.

ㅤ"if you two are going to be cheesy, better out of the room" xiao gui said.

ㅤ"we should get used to it" zhengting answered.

ㅤi ignored them to greet each of the boys one by one until only yanjun was left. i sat next to him. everyone else was talking to each other or to cheng xiao so they weren't paying attention to us.

ㅤ"you should have told me you were coming" yanjun told me.

ㅤ"it was a surprise"

ㅤ"but weren't you promoting your comeback?"

ㅤ"yes, but i had two days off"

ㅤ"then you should have stayed resting"

ㅤ"and miss your first fan meeting? no thanks" i replied.

ㅤ"are you leaving tomorrow?" he asked me and i nodded. "then we can do something special tonight" he added, smirking.

ㅤ"hey!" chengcheng suddenly exclaimed, making everyone pay attention to him. "yanjun wants to keep xinyue for himself tonight! since she's back with us we have to do something all together"

ㅤ"i'm sorry, yanjun" xukun added. "but chengcheng's right"

ㅤ"you've ruined their date" zhengting said.

ㅤ"i was going to turn him down anyway" i joked. yanjun looked at me offended and i showed him my tongue, teasing him.