An Indescribable Feeling

We Need to Talk

Anna should have expected it would be like this. She had always considered herself to be a realistic person. Not pessimistic, just realistic. She imagined that there were many people out there who wished they were the soulmate of a member of BTS. And why wouldn't they? They are beautiful, kind and funny guys.

Anna was backstage. They were in Japan at the last concert at the first venue. She had been on the road with BTS for three weeks. After meeting them for the first time they invited her to join them for the rest of their tour before going home to Seoul. Of course, Anna said yes. She had just met her soulmates and she didn't want to part from them so soon. She also had nothing to keep her in the UK.

If she had thought about it a little longer, she might have realised what it would be like. She might have taken the time to properly pack up her life, instead of leaping on a plane with them. Anna understood. The boys were always busy, rushing around for rehearsals and meetings. This tour was important to them. They had gone so long without performing for their fans that they wanted their performances to be perfect. Anna understood, but she couldn't help but feel out of place as she waited to catch them for the few minutes they could spare in between their schedules.

Her rational mind told her that things would be better after the tour had finished, but at that moment she had never felt more alone.

Anna left the green room she had been waiting in and wandered around backstage to look for a manager. When she found one, she told them that she was going back to the hotel. The manager insisted that she let him find someone to drive her. Although Anna had protested that she didn't want to bother them, inside she was relieved, happy that she didn't have to find her way around a place where she didn't even speak the language.

When she arrived back at the hotel, Anna went to her room and curled up on her bed. They hadn't been able to book extra rooms, so Taehyung had given up his room for her. At first, he wanted to share it with her, but the others convinced him to share with one of them instead.

Anna settled down with her iPad and decided to watch something. Needing cheering up, she chose something that had never failed to make her smile. BTS.

Lost in the endless stream of YouTube videos, hours must have passed without Anna noticing because someone suddenly joined her on the bed.

"What are you watching?"

Anna jumped slightly. She had forgotten that Hoseok's room was connected to hers.

"You."

She felt him hover over her shoulder.

"James Corden! Carpool Karaoke!"

He sounded so excited that she couldn't help but turn her head to look at him.

"It's my favourite video, because it led me to you."

"Really?"

"Really. I knew your names, but not who was who, so I tried to guess..."

"And?"

"I thought you were Jungkook?"

Anna hesitated when she said it, but she was relieved when Hoseok burst out laughing. Seeing him laugh, Anna couldn't help but smile. I did that.

"I didn't think it was that funny."

Hoseok stopped laughing at Anna's words and looked down at her. She had a gentle smile on her lips and her eyes seemed to radiate warmth as she gazed back at him. She looks so beautiful. Hoseok raised his hand and cupped Anna's face, caressing her cheek with his thumb. As he leaned in, he noticed her eyes widen and her body tense slightly. Hoseok watched as Anna's eyes would look anywhere but at him and her cheeks turned red. Hoseok dropped his hand from her cheek.