i wish it would take me completely
the darkness engulf me
because right now i am
running towards traces of light
and they keep
jumping
shifting
dying
i wish it would take me completely
the water seep into my skin
wash away all memory of life
above sea level
because right now
i am struggling to keep
from drowning
i lunge at the air
the waves strike back
i try
to stay up
but sometimes
i fail
i wish
i failed
for long enough.
i wish someone
would pour sand
and topple this casket
that marks the edges
of my universe
because right now
i am scratching at the insides
driven mad by the idea
of air
breath
life.
i wish
it would take me
completely
and not leave me
half dead
grasping at straws
never
living
undying.
