i read enough
to be a part of the
privileged
who can differentiate
among mendelson
and (something)
who do not have
greater worries
that take up too much time
and wnergy
to listen to nusic
for hours
i really wish
to listen
because i have found it (thru sleeping at last)
but i have found it only a little.
i cannot feel
100%
of anything
anymore
not hunger
not love
not jealousy
not hate
not emotions from storiesmusicvideosart
not pleasure
(spiritual sexual emotional or other)
it feels like
there are sheer curtains
around my head
and the brightness
is turned down low
it feels like
in my palm
i hold the
universe
as i know it
trying to
see
but clouds cover it
there is a
puncture
barely substantial
i can smell
how the world smells
(oh god, literally.)
but only
barely
substantially
