Pretty
Hot
Sexy
Gorgeous
Perfect
B e a u t i f u lAll words I dreamed of hearing
For the past 1/2 a decade I've dreamed of being seen in that light
Of not being boring
Of being something to stare at
And after months of staring with stars in my eyes
Months of my face lighting up at the split second glances before looking at something else
I have someone staring back
Someone staring back and never glancing away
Cause all they wanna see is me
It's all I ever wanted
And I dont want him to look away
I just hope he sees more
Cause when he looks at me I'm a lovesick little girl
I'm dumb and ditzy
"Its okay cause your pretty"
That's the responce when my brain stops working and I do something stupid and silly
And it's a funny lighthearted conversation
But I am smart
And I like being smart
But I'm never smart around him
Cause he makes it hard to think straight
And even when we have educated conversations I dont know shit about science or the space time continuum crap
So I just look stupid just smiling and nodding
Sit still look pretty
That's how I feel
Not because of anyone I did it to myself
I just smile and nod when I dont understand their sciencey talk
And I just want him to think of me as intelligent
But I dont really do a good job of proving that
And even one of my best friends thinks I'm stupid and making dumb decisions
And I feel awful for complaining
Cause I've got friends who support me even if they dont agree
And he thinks I'm really pretty and caring and nice
And that's all I could ask for
Almost all
I just dont wanna feel like they think I'm a moron
Idk
It's fine
Itll all be fine
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