My brothers best friend (South Park creek)

Chapter Twenty-Three

Craigs POV

Shit, shit, fuck me.

I don't know what to do!
This literally happened yesterday and I was fine, but it's different.

It's disgusting, it's wrong, it's........fucking amazing.

My mind and body are on different teams, I'm kinda confused.
In fact I'm super Craig confused.

All these fucking thoughts racing through my mind and I'm not even living the moment.
His lips are so soft and satisfying, much better than Bebes semi-chapped lips.

He's so forward and flirty, such a nice touch.
He's definitely the most beautiful person I've ever seen......

I'm so annoyed at myself.
Most people my age have already got it all figured out.
It's so simple:
Gay you like boys.
Straight you like chicks.
And Bi you're somewhere in between.

But it's not simple is it?
It's hard as fuck, if you get if wrong your whole life is basically a shit show.

If you don't jump to the right thing fast enough you're just a weirdo.
If you decide on things too soon people don't just leave you alone, there's all the stupid stupid questions;
"Are you sure?"
"How do you know your not straight if you haven't tried it."
"You're just confused."

Yeah I seen it all happen.
It's why I just wasn't bothered all those years ago, I avoided questioning myself, touching people, relationships..........sex.

Yeah big fat fucking surprise, Craig Tucker is a virgin.

A 22 year old virgin, how'd that happen?

Denial, low self esteem, Im a mess.

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"Um are you listening to me? I could go someplace else if you're gonna just doze off."

"No, no, no I can assure you I'm very alert. Wanted to go classic did you say?"

Half a days probably gone by and my mind just won't turn off.
That filter that ignores stuff that I don't want to think about is broken.
I think it's been broken ever since I meet that annoyingly beautiful blonde.

When will this all stop!?

"If you fuck up this tat I swear you'll be a dead man Tucker."

I roll my eyes at the kinda regular customer.
She comes in every few months for some random ink that doesn't really have a symbolic meaning.

Probably just a noob who wants to look like an OG gangsta.
It's not like I can say anything I mean she does look pretty punk but looking a certain way and being a certain way are two different things.

"Why are you so unfocused today dude?"

I just stare at the needle piercing her skin.
It could be in concentration or just plain boredom, most likely fascination though because no matter how many Tattoos I give this never gets old.

"I'm just going through stuff," I answer dryly.
Mostly because this chick has nothing to do with me and there's really no point in telling her about my life problems.

"Hm 'stuff' guys always have 'stuff' I'm so glad that I'm not interested in them."

My ears perk up at this.

"So you're into girls?"

"Woman."

Mhm I just know I'm in the presence of a feminist, better run.

Calm down, calm down, just kidding!
Take a god damn joke.

"Well um if you don't mind me asking how did you know for sure?"

She looks at me weirdly, "I guess It was around the time I met my now fiancé. She opened up a whole new world for me and that was when I knew for sure that I wanted her for myself."

"So before that....."

"Before that I always kept in mind what was socially acceptable."

This is probably the most I've talked to her since I like to keep most convos brief.

I'm a professional guy what can I say!

"So I've kinda always wondered, are you gay?"

I gulp not knowing what to say.
I mean I can't just tell her I don't know that would be so stupid.

"What makes you wonder?"

"I don't know you got that vibe about you I suppose, but then again my gaydars always been a little off."

I just hum in response.
I don't wanna continue this conversation.

Tweeks POV

Am I being too direct?
I feel like maybe Craig didn't want me to kiss him and it makes me feel bad.
If he's straight then he's probably very pissed off.
If he isn't then maybe just maybe I'll ask him out to dinner.
If he's interested that is.

My self confidence hadn't always been the best when it comes to dates.

Maybe it's best to just leave it all alone.

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