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Sam+Dean x sister Reader

You sat on the floor of your room a glass of whiskey held loosely in your hand. 
You were writing in your journal, and soft music was playing in the background. 

You had fallen in love with someone who was already in a relationship. Someone who had another to love. You knew the risks and you went for it anyway knowing you were just a side piece but falling in love with him. You felt so dirty and ashamed. So used. But you knew for him you would do it over again. And that's what makes you sick. 

When he broke things off he tried to pass it off like nothing happened, and it hurt. Knowing you would do anything for someone who would do nothing for you. 

You finished off the whiskey in one go and sat the glass on the floor. Your hands are shaky and your eyes being stung by tears. 
You sat there in silence thinking over what happened. 

You hear a song begin to play and it just so happens to be Illicit Affairs by Taylor Swift. This song could portray your emotions perfectly. 

You began to shakily sing the song, trying not to let out sobs. 

"Make sure nobody sees you leave
Hood over your head keep your eyes down
Tell your friends you're out for a run
You'll be flushed when you return. 
Take the road less traveled by
Tell yourself you can always stop
What started in beautiful rooms
Ends with meetings in parking lots."

You sang the song as it progressed, the lump in your throat growing painful.  You pray that no one can hear you right now. You don't need anyone to know that you're breaking. 

"That's the thing about Illicit Affairs 
And clandestine meetings
And longing stares
They're born from just one single glance
But it dies, and it dies, and it dies a million little times. 

Leave the perfume on the shelf 
That you picked out just for him
So you leave no trace behind 
Like you don't even exist"
Your voice began to break as the song continued on letting the scenes roll through your mind like a film reel. 
This is when the tears begin to leak from your eyes. You were sad.. you were vulnerable. 

"Take the words for what they are 
A dwindling mercurial high
A drug that only worked the first few hundred times

That's the thing about Illicit Affairs
And clandestine meetings and stolen stares
They show their truth one single time 
But they lie and they lie and they lie a million little times."

Now is when you began to completely break open. Letting your fear of being caught out the window. The next part came up and you raised your voice in frustration as you practically spit out the words. While heaving sobs. 

" And you wanna scream
Don't call me kid
Don't call me baby
Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me
You showed me colors you know I can't see with anyone else.

Don't call me kid
Don't call me baby
Look at this idiotic fool that you made me
You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else

And you know Damn well 
For you I would ruin myself  a million little times." You cried out fiercely. 

-- 
Dean and Sam passed by your room while walking to the library when they heard music playing. 

They both smiled and shook their heads thinking that this was a typical thing for you to do. But then they heard your voice raise and break. They heard you singing your heart out and sobbing. 
Cringing at the lyrics you had been singing. Knowing from how you were singing them they meant something to you. So being the big brothers they are they opened the door softly. 

There you are sitting on the floor completely disheveled, and a glass and bottle of whiskey not far from your grasp. They could hear your heart wrenching sobs. 

Sam walked over and placed a hand on your shoulder and pulled you towards him. You didn't even fight him, you just let your tired body crash into his arms. Dean walked around the other side of you to take the alcohol away from you. All you could do was cry and try to reach for it. 

"No way Sweetheart. None of that. Now what's wrong?" He asked, placing a hand on your knee. 

You cried and clutched Sam's jacket and buried your face in his chest. 

Sam just held you close. 

"Look you don't have to talk about it, just let us be here for you. We're your big brothers, we love you." Sam said. You could feel his chest vibrate from his speech. 

"Sweetheart c'mere." Dean said before you shot up and crawled over to him. He wrapped his arms around you. 

"He humiliated me. Made me fall for him when he had another girl. And damn it I knew about her. I was just a side fling.. i'm so ashamed of myself. He made me feel like a naive little kid. He left me a mess, and looking like a fool. I don't know what to do anymore." You whimpered out clinging to Dean for dear life.

He looked down at you while Sam's eyebrows knitted together. 
" You're not a fool (y/n), you're young. You make mistakes we all have. That's ok, you'll be ok we promise." Dean said as he continued to hold you and place a kiss on your head. 
You nodded your head not fully believing but you knew enough to know that you weren't alone.