Thoughts - Which make me awake, Which make me cry

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Overthinking overthinking thanks for being here and not making me lonely it's you who makes me open my eyes at the night

I don't know what she talk about in the stories, in her poems. I really wanna know who is the one she talk.

She says something in indonesian language I will just translate for you all (I hope Its all right I translated my best) :

"Welcome October I hope you won't hurt like September He gave me a deep wound That made me cry all night But now it's your turn to erase all dark stories Erase all traces of the prince
in the dark of the night."

&

"I am sleepy
But iam scared to close my eyes
Because when i close it
You always come there
and my heart will say that u will be mine"

&

"For you who are there
I beg you to sleep
I don't want to see your eyes wet
Because I'm too tired
Whether it's to hurt or be hurt"

Okay so let's continue by her words 🙂 it's a bit hard for me to say it's even hurting when I am writing. But pray for me and her that we both can live together and be happy.

She speaks about a guy who is waking and who is hurting her I don't know who is hurting her but I really wanna beat that guy like who the hell he thinks he is. He is just a typical guy none the less he will die too.

Ohh like why I love that girl so much 😍
She makes me feel I am like flying

If someone says me what to choose "a million dollars or her love"
You know what I will probably live homeless and be with her give my love and take her love.

How can you live without love it isn't possible. Seriously I am such a boring guy.
I am writing all my feelings and I know she will read it too 😭

Just wanna say her that if you want to come back and life with me I am always here.
But if she loves someone tell me I will let you guys meet I will help and then go from y'all life.

Just be happy my marshmallow I really am missing you 🥺