I'm just so close to breaking.
I wanna lie down again and bawl out, but there's this small voice in my head saying - hold on. You'll waste even more time.
Why does that make sense, when nothing else does ?
I feel like I might burst anytime. I wanna let it spill, but I'm empty - tears leaking from me daily have left me with none more.
Maybe I should not give up yet, but where will that lead to - more days of walking on this tightrope. I'm barely making it through these days, every small insignificant problem carves a needle sized cut and I'm full of them to a point they hurt worse than a sword.
A little thing is enough to mess up my day, everyday.
I'm clueless as to what I am and should be doing.
I can't seem to move beyond this let- it-go-for-today phase when all it seems like I've already lost control.
I know I'm the only one who can bring me out of this, but all my ways fail to work.
I feel like I really don't know what to do.
It's like I'm completely lost.
Should I just let it go and cry it out ?
Maybe.
There's this strange satisfaction I get on crying.
Like I've finally put my fears, regrets, problems, faults, everything out in the open and I've got nothing to lose. It's the when-you-are-at-the-lowest-point, there's-no-way-but-up kinda feeling. Gives me this burst of confidence that its all gonna be fine, that I can actually manage it and that it will work out - beautifully.
But it goes back to normal in a day or two, the cycle starts again, so what's the point of that ?
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--Bridges--
PoetryOne of the favourite lessons reading books has taught me is that you're never alone, not alteast in thoughts and words. There are others who think like you, feel like you and react like you. It's like that sometimes, our unspoken thoughts are the b...
