i'm not the only one - new ver

chapter twenty

"I did not ask you to forgive me immediately, because I knew I deserved it."

third person pov

a few days ago, war was still waiting for the right time to tell yin that he wanted a divorce. a few days later, after work, yin went to war's house, where he met war, his friends, and their son.

everyone was quiet while watching tv, feeling awkward, including the four kids.

offroad and daou just stared at each other, and offroad thought to himself how awkward it was to be around a couple like yin and war.

"i think i'm sleepy," phufah said.

"me too, because all of you are so quiet, so i feel sleepy too," ren added.

"me too," teerak said.

"count me in, so what's going on with all of you?" bua asked.

"nothing, let's go upstairs. they just need to talk—just old talk. you're not allowed, since you're all kids. i'll take the kids upstairs first," offroad said, picking up teerak and holding the hands of the other three.

"i'll come with you, love," daou said, and offroad nodded as they went upstairs, still leaving the four kids quiet downstairs.

war's pov

now, i will talk to him. i finally have the courage to do so. i take a deep breath and remind myself: for our child, war. you can do this.

"yin, can i talk to you?" i said, and yin was shocked but nodded. we walked to the garden, with me leading and him following.

"i want a divorce, and i will give you the papers again. please sign them," i said, holding back my tears.

i saw how surprised he was, and then his tears started falling. my heart ached.

"w-war, i don't want to sign the papers. i don't want this, please. i beg you, don't do it," yin said, crying. war, you're strong. remember, you're strong. don't let pity get to you.

"enough now. i don't want to be hurt again because of you," i said.

"please, war. don't do this," yin pleaded, and suddenly, he knelt in front of me again. i admit, it hurt to see him like that, and my tears began to fall.

"i begged you, war. i didn't ask you to forgive me immediately because i knew i deserved it. i will do anything, but i won't agree to the divorce. i love you so much, war."

"do you love me, right?" i asked. he nodded.

"then sign the divorce papers and stay away from me," i said, crying. i pushed him away, but deep down, i didn't want to.

"i don't want to, war. i don't want to, please," he cried, and i could feel it. he was struggling to breathe. seeing him like this hurt me deeply.

yin's pov

i just cried. before this, i had a headache, but i ignored it. now, i felt like i couldn't breathe, and my headache worsened.

my eyes started to close, and everything went black.

war's pov

i panicked when i saw that he lost consciousness. i gently slapped his cheek, still crying.

"yin!" i called out.

"yin!"

"daou! offroad! help me!" i shouted. i called out again.

"daou! offroad! help me!"

i saw daou and offroad running toward us.

"what's happening?" offroad asked.

"he collapsed while we were talking," i said, crying.

"lift him, daou. i'll get my things and check on him," offroad said. daou helped me carry yin, and we took him to my room.

"he had syncopes," offroad said.

"what does that mean?" i asked, worried.

"syncopes is the medical term for fainting or passing out. it can be caused by anxiety, fear, extreme pain, alcohol use, intense emotions, stress. i also see he's lacking rest and sleep, which is why you need to care for him," offroad explained. i slowly understood what he was saying.

"let me out first. take care of yin," offroad said. i nodded.

i felt guilty because i was the reason he collapsed. the situation was really difficult now.

i sat in the chair next to the bed, holding his hand.

nothing changed. he still looked like an angel as he slept.

why did he have to kneel in front of me? i didn't understand.

"i don't understand. we were happy. i loved you, you loved me, so why did we end up like this? you cheated on me. if i did something wrong, you should have said it so i could fix it. why are you still here? i'm happy now, so why are you coming back?" i said, crying.

i didn't want to hurt anymore.

knock knock

there was a weak knock at the door.

i wiped away my tears and opened the door.

"pa!" teerak said, knocking.

"baby," i said.

"uncle yin is okay?" he asked. no, son. he's not your uncle. he's your daddy.

"yeah, he's okay now, but he's still sleeping. do you want to see him?" i asked.

"he's not sick? yeah, pa, i want to see him," he said.

"no, baby. let's go," i said, holding his hand. teerak leaned over yin and touched his forehead. i knew he was checking if yin had a fever.

"pa, uncle yin doesn't have a fever? why is he still sleeping?" teerak asked.

"uncle offroad said uncle yin is lacking rest and sleep, so that's why he's still sleeping," i said.

"why is he lacking rest? am i the reason? because i'm always playing with him?" teerak asked, his voice sad.

"no, baby. you're not the reason, okay? he doesn't want you to think that," i said.

"if i'm not the reason, then if uncle yin is sad, i'll kiss him even if he's sleeping. uncle yin is so kind. i hope he's my daddy... and not my real daddy because of your crying," teerak said, and i fell silent. he kissed yin's forehead.

what should i do if i tell him yin is his daddy? what should i do?
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