Vents, rants, and things I just need to get out

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OKAY FUCKFUCKFUCK

OH GOD I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IM SO CONFUSED

Alright, let me explain.
For the longest time, I thought I was straight. Then, I found out about asexuality and I was like "Oh wow, that's me!" And I started identifying as asexual heteroromantic. But now, I'm starting to wonder if I have a crush on someone I know, making me question if I'm biromantic or panromantic.

And let's just say, I'm really fucking confused.

I've told a few people I'm ace, but only two know about this possible crush. I mean, I've never really had a crush before, but after searching the web, here's how I feel:

~ I get really nervous texting them cause I don't want to bother them and I don't want them to be annoyed and I get very anxious

~ They were talking to someone else in class one day and I got kind of jealous

~ They ALWAYS make me smile

~ They're beautiful and amazing

~ I have fantasized before about dating/holding their hand/kissing them, but I always brushed it off, saying it was normal for everyone to do that

~ I get really really excited when they says they're free to hang out

~ I always reread our old texts and they make me really happy and I can't stop smiling

~ I usually think about this at night and get frustrated and confused, making me cry at least twice

Does this sound like a crush????

Please let me know if this sounds like the stereotypical signs of a crush, it would help a lot