One Last Time. [Boruto fan Fiction ]

I'll do it for him.

I couldn't save him.

He'll never forgive me.

He'll hate me.

He'll hate me forever.

These thoughts always scare me at night.

Nightmares always ruining my entire sleep.  I'm afraid of even entering my bedroom.

Whenever I close my eyes... I see his face.

He smiles at me.. He plays with me.

He asks me questions.

Questions I have no answer to.

He asks me why he couldn't meet his mother?

Why is he kept away from everyone?

He asks me why can't he see his sister.

He asks me where are his friends.

He asks me to tell him my story.

If nothing else. Atleast teach him a new justu.

And I just stand infront of him like a fool.
A complete ignorant fool who can't do anything he asks for.

Who can't answer anything.

He takes me to play with him everynight. 

Something I couldn't give him when he was alive.

I just observe him from a distance.

He speaks. He speaks a lot.

And I just listen. I chuckle and he pouts.

When he's with me. He's always scoffing yet smiling.

Just like how it was before.

Don't take me wrong. I'm not that stupid.

I knew this wasn't him.

That it was just my brain playing games with me.

Playing with my emotions.

I wanted to forget it.  To forget him.

But the moment he smiles at me. The moment our eyes meet...

I couldn't say it.

I couldn't shove him away. My lips would freeze , my hands automatically moving to embrace him.

And damn he disappears before I could even touch him.

I couldn't touch my own son.

All I could do was see him breaking in front of me.

My heart breaks everytime he asks me if I hate him.

That why don't I ever answer him?

I don't say anything.

And now.. He just smiles at my silence.

A smile that speaks his mind. That he has finally began to understand.

What I couldn't say.

Though sometimes he breaks. Unable to take it anymore.

I could see the tears forming in his blue eyes.

The eyes I adored with my heart. The eyes that reflects my own self in them.

And those eyes...that were once bright and full of light were now dull.