Deserve (Eren x Reader)

Chapter 12: Bitter Coffee

I sat was sat on the couch at Starbucks, with Ymir and Historia. After the lecture we had decided to meet up to get coffee. Ymir had her arm over Historia, and I couldn't help but smile at how cute they were.

"What are you stressing about?" Ymir asked Historia, eyebrows furrowed. Historia sighs, and puts her head in her hands. "I'm so behind. I was so focused on helping out at the children's ward, I forgot to study, and next assignment placement is going to be hard. I just know it."

I looked at her with concern, "If you're so worried, I can help you? I'm sure we'll be in the same group anyways."

Historia shook her head, "I can't keep relying on you Y/N, I'll just have to cut back on my volunteer work and focus on Uni."

Just then Hange and Levi entered the Starbucks.

"HEY GUYS!" Hange bellowed. The entire coffee shop turned to look at her. Levi sighed unhappily, "Will you shut up, Four-Eyes."

Hange grinned, ignoring Levi. She skipped up to our coffee table and plopped on the inner part of the couch. Levi followed her casually, his black hair glinting mutedly from the warm glow of the Starbucks' lights.

Hange's hair was pulled back in her usual messy pony tail, a large mess of fringe covering her eyes and part of her frames. "What's up you two?" I smiled at Hange and Levi. Levi chose to perch on the couches arm rest, and leaned his hands behind me on the back of the couch.

"Peachy," Levi mumbled, clearly more disgruntled than I had ever seen him thus far.

"Levi, what's wrong, you seem gloomier than usual," Ymir questioned. Historia looked up from her notes in concern.

"Well....-" Hange began.

"Once again shut up, Four-Eyes," Levi interrupted before Hange had the chance to speak, "They were talking to me not you." Hange laughed, unconcerned and unfazed by his brittle nature towards her. Perhaps that was the type of friendship they had. Mutually bullying and loving friendship. If I were Hange, I would surely cry if Levi said that to me. I wanted Levi to like me, and I wasn't sure as to why I wanted to appease him.

"Remember the party at the start of the year?" Levi responded. We all nodded in remembrance.

"Just barely," I giggled. I was overly drunk and high, and my hormones were over the roof thanks to a certain someone. Frankly, they still are in concerns to him.

"Yeah, you were spazzed out," Ymir laughed chaotically, her freckled nose scrunching up when she laughed.

Him. But how dare I? I can't fall for someone I had a not-so one night stand with, someone out of my league, and someone who was clearly only here for a good time. How dare I think about him all the time. Someone who clearly was a player, who wasn't actually attracted to me, more so my female body than me. Someone who was clearly bad for me, but at the same time caring. Someone I didn't deserve.

"So yeah-," Levi finished in a monotone. My head snapped up, and slowly I brought the coffee in my hands to my lips. I had zoned out on Levi.

"Y/N? What do you think?" Historia asked. Everyone was looking at me expectedly.

"Levi, I'm not gonna lie to you, I zoned out completely before you even started. I don't know where my head went," I answered sheepishly. Ymir cackled from her seat, almost knocking her drink off the coffee table. "Be careful Ymir!" Historia said frantically, trying to grab the cup.

"Well basically, Levi friend zoned and basically romantically dumped and broke the heart of the one girl who has ever loved him and will ever love him cause he's a cold hearted rat," Hange heaved, spewing it out in one breath.

Levi glared at Hange with his steely grey eyes. I raised my eyebrows, forgetting about my own drama for his. Ymir tutted, "You do realise Petra was basically in love with you?"

Historia nodded in agreement, "Duh"

"You all knew?" he asked, eyebrows raised.

"You're just an oblivious short meanie," Hange said gesturing with her hands.

"You can be really cold sometimes Levi, secluded even with your friends," Historia said kindly, "You do know we care about you right? Even Y/N even if she's only known you a short while."

I nodded, placing a hand on his shoulder, gently.

He looked up from his hands, his eyes overcast, a shadowy grey almost stormy. The look he had was pained and it flit across his face so quickly, I had almost believed I was seeing things. As if it never happened. Suddenly I felt cold, and I was curious as to why he had such a pained expression and why he would feel such a way among people who obviously cared about him.

"Levi," Hange called. Levi lifted his head to look at her, clearly tired and not willing to scold her anymore.

"Petra really loved you, she always has," Hange said. "I know you can be emotionally obtuse but would it have killed you to have entertained it? To at least see if you'd ever feel the same way?"

Levi sighed. I could tell he obviously had an answer but he didn't want to give it. And I couldn't help but wonder what it would've been. He ran his free hand through his hair each strand falling silkily back into place.

The background noise of the crowded coffee shop continued, something I had failed to notice before. I watched as a new barista who hadn't been working when we entered, prepared a drink for a customer. Her waist length brown hair swaying softly. Must've just started her shift then. I thought about sending my CV/Resumé here.

I sighed. "I think we should drop the topic."

Historia and Ymir turned to look at me questioningly. "I mean, it doesn't seem fair to probe him about it? He probably doesn't want to talk about it. He's 20, I'm surehe's grown enough to share when he decides to."

Hange clearly wasn't impressed. I wouldn't be either, if I were in her shoes. I'd expect my bestfriend to tell me everything, even what was making them upset. But no matter what, i Hitch or Alec decided they didn't want to tell me, I'd have to respect it.

"I'm going to get a cup of tea," He said flatly. With that, he got up and walked slowly to the brunette barista.

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