Games to the Mind ✔

Overdue Apologies

Sorry. 

Five simple letters with the ability to twist my tongue into a jigsaw no whiz kid would have the audacity to crack. 

I'm sorry for never telling you I loved you. 

I'm sorry I was so fixated on being destroyed that I couldn't comprehend that you could have kept me safe. 

I'm sorry I check my heartbeat like clockwork. 

But the aftermath of every close call is a permanent feeling of running out of time. 

I apologize for holding your hand like your skin could possibly be anything but desirable to me. 

Truth be told

I always liked the way you felt like an inside-out cigar. 

I miss the way you breathed my pain like it was second hand smoke.

I'm sorry all I had to offer you was a busted frame and a hollow interior. 

And I'm sorry I was too afraid to even give you that.

I'm sorry I treated your patience like a burden

For making you believe your smile was something I could choke on. 

You were my proof that happiness doesn't only come in pill form 

And I've been trying to drown these butterflies you left running through my head. 

I killed the ones in my stomach the first time you put your arm around me. 

I'd give anything to have them back.