Games to the Mind ✔

Burning

You're going to tell people I never loved you

& i'm going to keep screaming it even in my sleep

You'll tell people "thats the girl that broke me"

& I'll wonder how you could even think that when i tried to make you whole with all of my broken pieces

You're going to say i never cared

& I'll laugh because it's been 8 months since you have left and to this day you are still all i care about

You'll say i never meant anything i said about you

But i still see galaxies in your eyes and fire in your heart

my heart craves your love and i can't understand how that is any type of secret

How can i explain to everyone that every time the lights go out that I turn my flashlight on 

& the first thing i'm guided to, well I see you there 

You told me I was weak for losing myself, when I lost you

but as the blade went across my skin I didn't feel half of the pain I did when I saw you with her

And when I passed out because I couldnt keep anything other than vodka I drank in order to drown you out,

the fall to the floor was nowhere near comparable to the memories of falling into your arms

You say i'm weak as if i don't already know

So I'll keep carving your touch off of my skin just to show you I'm not as weak as you think

Maybe that will make you come back

You lit the fire in my heart, 

but chose not to watch it

I've been burning ever since.