Petals in the Window

Part 26 ~ The Aftermath

Yes.. the last chapter was as painful for you as it was for me... Oops? Anyways.. on with this chapter.. I promise it gets better!

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Book 1 Part 26

The Aftermath

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It had taken a while to calm down. I fell into a silence as Korra went to heal some more of my wounds. I was sitting up against the headboard. Apparently The boys and Korra won the match they needed to move onto the finals. Tenzin had made some calls and they pushed the Finals back about a week.

There was an investigation going on due to the Fire and Nan.. The place didn't collapse but.. It's not savable. Once the investigation is over I can go in and see what Is left.

I don't ever want to step back into that building again.. But I'll have to.

I was zoning out, Sitting in between Mako and Bolin. They'd probably hate me if they knew it was my fault. I was only focusing on Pabu. He was so soft and sweet. The burns on my right arm were also really bad. Korra had bandaged it up as I stared at Pabu who was playing with a piece of my hair. I held part of it up before dangling it in front of him. He chased it around like a toy.

I should cut my hair.. Nan had been begging me.. I should have cut it sooner. The hairpins miraculously stayed in my hair. Maybe shoulder length.. I could still use them then. Apparently the fan nan gave me was in my pocket. It was resting on a nightstand... I wanted nothing to do with it.

I killed a man with it.

I don't regret it.. But I never want to do it again.

We were all sitting in silence. I hated it but It still hurt to speak. I was leaning against the headboard of the bed as I felt my eyes droop. I felt like I could pass out, but I was scared of what was waiting for me when I finally gave into sleep. I shook myself awake each time my eyes would close.

The door to the room opened and we all turned our attention to Tenzin who walked in. It was really late.. Or early?.. The clock read that it was almost four in the morning.

"It's been a terrible night, but you all need to get some sleep." Hardly possible.. He looked at us all so sadly. My head was against Bolin's shoulder at that point as I fought to stay awake. Tenzin saw that none of us made any moves to listen. He sighed. "It is the only way you all can heal.. mentally as well as physically."

Still no one moved and he sighed once again. "If we brought some futons into this room, would you all attempt some sleep..? We have also set up the rooms next to this one in case you want to be left alone." His final statement was directed specifically towards me. And honestly I had no idea what I wanted.. Only thing I did know was sleep wasn't it. I looked at the bed as I played with Pabu.. I just shrugged, all eyes were on me and honestly..

I was scared to be alone...

But I was equally scared to have them near me.

No... I was far more scared to have them near me.

I picked at the edge of the bandage that was wrapped around my arm before speaking.. " I... I think I want to be alone." Mako and Bolin clearly didn't like my answer. Bolin nodded but Mako turned to me.

"Are you sure Kid...?" He sadly spoke. His tone held a portion of fear with it. I just nodded as I stared at the blanket. "Okay.. okay." He sighed as he and Bolin went to stand up. Bolin gave me a gentle hug and Mako pushed my hair out of my face before they walked away from the bed. It felt like I was having a staring contest with this blanket, but I really didn't want to see everyone's expressions.