Petals in the Window

Part 29 ~ Poppy

Book 1 Part 29

Poppy

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I was confused, no way around it. I had gotten in my head sometime after Korra, having the use of her arm return to her, chose violence. After lunch Korra had brought up the idea of training with Fae, I guess after three days of almost doing nothing but watch me, she started to get antsy.. Reasonably so.

We had moved out to the large courtyard. I was simply sitting against a nearby tree as I looked on at the waterbenders in the center. Bolin was standing against the tree I was sitting against.

I kept thinking about how Korra called me princess. I.. Didn't hate it?.. Which raised the question.. Why?.. I know I still had feelings for Korra... whether or not I wanted to act on them because of what happened... I still don't know what I wanted..

I was still upset when I thought about it.. I was willing to move on so we could remain friends... But was I willing to be more..?

Was she willing to be more?

Fae said her feelings were genuine... Was he talking about being sorry? Or like.. Her feelings~ Feelings... As in how she said she liked me... I still wasn't sure if she was serious.. Or if it really was because of Mako..

Then there was Mako... I hadn't seen him since the day after the fire.. Why wasn't he around?.. I know he needs to be alone to deal with things.. But that doesn't change the fact I want him around.. It's selfish to think like that I know.. But.. I don't know.. I didn't want to think about it.. I shook my head.. Going back to the main confusion in my head...

When it came to the Korra issue... We are pretending like it didn't happen... She apologized.. But that was it. I was scared and alone that night. I needed someone and Korra was there.. Is that why I so eagerly forgave her? I am still upset by it.. But.. I'm ignoring it! We are acting like it just didn't happen...

"So what do you want to do exactly? You weren't specific" Fae had turned to Korra. I kept fading in and out of my thoughts..

" I want to go a round or two!" Korra said, not really being specific.. What were they training? Did they really want to do that chi blocking training now?

"With or without bending?" Fae asked... followed by silence..

"Hey!~ Princess! He's asking you!" Korra called and I snapped up from the patch of grass I was playing with... Annnddd she said it again!

"Oh!. Ummm.. No bending.. I don't want any trees caught on fire!" I shouted back.. It would be pretty bad if Korra started a forest fire... Already got burnt once this week, don't need a second...

"Oh boy... I'm expecting so many bruises after this..." I shook my head before beginning to half pay attention.. But I couldn't focus...

Maybe I should have told Korra not to call me that...

"It's not going to be so bad~" Korra waved him off as she smiled..

Bolin whispered down at me.. "Yeah... For her.." He half snickered... thinking most likely of their training sessions at the arena..

I nodded.. "True." Thinking about when I had trained with her... She never really hurt me though, only ever knocked me down. But I could only imagine what this was going to look like....

Fae shrugged as he asked the guidelines of this.. " Ready whenever you are... are we going for the usual no holding back, as long as we don't kill each other?" I'm sorry... What..?