Petals in the Window

Part 28 ~ The Recountment

Book 1 Part 28

The Recountment

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I should have never agreed to this. Tenzin was right.. I was not ready to talk to the police about what happened.. It didn't help that I had about an hour of sleep last night. My head was killing me. I wanted nothing more than to crawl back in bed, no.. the idea of that terrified me. The police were the last people I wanted to talk to. I wanted no part of this.

I kept fighting with myself, there was this tiny part of me that didn't blame myself... this tiny part of me blamed them for this.

I was sitting at the desk in the room I was in. My leg kept bouncing and I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin. Is it too late to back out?.. Nope.. But at least once they leave it over and done with right?... Hopefully? ....

Please?

I also didn't want to talk to them alone.. I was just praying it was some random detective. Someone I didn't know and would never have to see again.

Maybe I could ask Korra or Fae to stay with me?... Was that allowed?...

I just played with my fingers as I stared at the wooden desk. Tenzin said they'd be here around noon... and it was now in fact noon..... I wanted to hide.

They would be here any second and I would have to relive my worst nightmare... I'm constantly reliving it... but.. Out loud? Could I even say what happened without having a meltdown?...

Then there was the knock at the door I was dreading... Oh I'm not ready for this.. I regret this. It was a horrible Idea.

" (Y/n)...? Are you awake?".. Oh.. It was Fae..

"Y-yeah~... you can come in." I felt like I was going to explode.. This was an actual nightmare.... Everyday of my life was practically a nightmare.

He came in and closed the door. " Are you okay? Did you sleep okay?" I shook my head.. There was absolutely no point in lying... I could see myself in the mirror.. I couldn't even convince myself.. Let alone anyone else.

"I got about an hour more than I thought I would...... So that totals to... one hour. of sleep.."

"Oh... do you need anything? Anyway I can help?" Not unless you could hide me from the world....

I laughed.. "Throw me out the window before the police get here.... I regret agreeing to talk to them today~" I sighed as I covered my face.. I was exhausted, irritable and on the edge of yet another breakdown...

"I can tell them to come back another time, you don't look like you're ready to talk about it... I still technically have the ability to talk to Beifong however..." He had a point... But I shook my head.

"As much as I'm not ready... I honestly don't think I ever will be.. Rather get it over with... But I really don't want to.. I don't know.."

"I could always be there when you talk to them if you want? So you aren't alone?" Yes please I really wanted that...

"They should be here any second... and I really don't wanna do this alone." I was still practically shaking as my leg bounced and I looked at the clock on the wall...

"You never have to do anything alone... That defeats the point of having loved ones around" He put his hand on my shoulder as he smiled at me.. I sent a small one back.

"Thanks."

"Anytime~ Also... your advice was pretty helpful last night..."

I smiled... "I noticed Bolin stayed over last night.. He still here?" I smirked as I looked at him..