The man I thought I knew?

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Maia's prov... So I woke from a dead sleep to answer the phone I shouldn't even be getting phone calls from because I haven't given a single human being my phone number yet and so I am confused why I am getting a call, I figured it was just a solicitor but I decided that I was going to answer just in case and so I grab my phone and answer the call on the last ring and I say Hello? And no one said anything and then I realized who it would be, I believe it was Paul but I have no clue how he would have got my number so I was pretty freaked out especially since I haven't seen him since the accident, fuck that why am I protecting, since he fucking stabbed me and tried to make it my fault as I stabbed myself. So the fact that he wants to try and talk to me or who knows what, he's probably confused how I am not dead and freaking out because he didn't expect me to survive, so somehow he knows I lived and new phone number, probably knows where I live too. So immediately got up and went to find Karen or Hen and try not to scare their kid with all my fucked up problems.


So I finally find Karen who's waking up their son for dinner and I try to calm down before I go and figure out what I am going to say to her about Paul possibly stalking me since I left the hospital and probably figured out that I am not at our old apartment and don't plan on going back to live there ever again, I also probably need to figure out if he knows that my fire department got the call when he attacked me and left me for the dead which also means Buck was there and saw what Paul did to me if he can find me somehow even with a new phone and new number it worries me that he could find Buck and hurt him if he thinks that I was lying to him at all about being closer to Buck then I lead on or had or have feelings for Buck. Honestly, I don't know what I feel about Buck, mostly confused and trying to figure out why he would help me and stay with me and tell people he's my boyfriend just so he could see me but then the second he is away from me he has another girl with him and couldn't even give me a second alone to talk to him about everything and apologize for everything that has happened in the last couple days but of course, decided to go back to his douche self wanted his bimbo to be in the room even though it was a private subject between us. I don't know why it bothers me so much but it does I can't think about those things right now I just need to keep thinking about myself and keeping myself safe and making sure no one else gets in trouble or hurt because of me and don't think I could mentally or physically take someone else getting hurt or killed because of my actions or because of someone I was with. I just wish I could have made better decisions with the people I chose to have in my life and now it's just all fucked up and I can't take it, I never wanted my fucked up life to get so fucked up that its messing things up in all aspects of my life.

So I walked into the kitchen and see Karen pulling out dinner she made for everyone while her boys are waking up, so this is my chance to talk to her about everything and tell her that I should probably move out as soon as possible. I walk up to her and she says hey honey what's up I see you're awake, is everything okay? and I said not exactly that's why I came to talk to you and we can talk more when Hen comes home as well but I thought I should let you know that I got a weird call from an unknown number and I had no clue who it was  but I caught the call on the last ring and it was Paul I didn't talk to him again I didn't know who it was but I said hello and then he said Hi Maia and then I hung up and it freaked me out and started thinking about everything and I am worried he is stalking me and possibly knows where I am living and I am scared that he might be stalking Buck as well but I can't prove it but half the reason this happened was that he thought me and Buck were secretly together or liked each or whatever and since the whole pretending to be my boyfriend got me worried because that's exactly what I didn't want and so I am terrified Paul was somewhere waiting for me or him and she looked at with wide eyes and was completely speechless, I didn't know what else to do because she still hasn't said a thing and then I realize that she is in shock and is taking in what I am saying and realizing that it could be true and that he could be watching this place and if that is the case that's very dangerous for all of them if I am here. So she finally looks up after taking it all in and says so what does this mean for you then? I was in shock when she said that because I was wondering why she was caring about me I would think she would be caring more about her family so after the initial shock of what she said, I said don't worry about me I'll find somewhere to live just worry about your family. I told you this so you guys can be careful and call the cops if you see anyone hanging around the house but I think I should leave tomorrow and I will be fine and back at work soon, but please just be careful, and if I don't see Hen before I leave please tell her everything I told you and make sure she is careful as well.

 So I just turned around to the room they had set me up in and started packing the few things I had brought with me and tried to think where I could crash for the night because I have nowhere I could stay I've been in L. A and don't have any family and no friends here the only person I know here was Paul and then of course now the people I work with but that isn't working. I will just try to figure it out by myself, just like usual, I am always alone too so it's all up to me and I have to figure it out quick because I am trying to rack my brain on where I am going to sleep for a few days before I get a few more paychecks from my job before I can afford a new place.  I get my stuff packed up and walk back to the kitchen thank god Hen isn't home yet so I don't have to explain why I am leaving so soon and I see Karen talking to her kids while they are eating and said well I am all packed now and I am going to head out now and please don't worry about me, I am going to be fine and if something does happen don't feel guilty about it because this was my choice and my choice alone, then I walk out the door and take a deep breath and start walking till I find myself at the last place I should ever be......


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