Pain in my ass!!!

Brave faces and new places

So I walk into work and everyone gives me a smile and says hi and asks if I'm excited for my second day and I gave them the fakest smile I could and said absolutely and then I walk to my locker and I curse under my breath theres Buck at his locker and he is the last person I want to talk to after last night because I know I will end punching him again so I try to ignore him the best I can because I am so unbelievably pissed with him still so I grab my gear and go get it on and right as I walk out Henny walks up to me and says that captain Nash needs to see me immediately and I was freaking out because I am really worried that some how captain Nash found out about last night but I know I had to face the music one way or another no matter what it is, so I start walking up the stairs to Captain Nash's office worried as all hell and trying make sure that I am not walking like I just broke my leg so I get to the door of his office and take deep breath and knocked on the door and I heard him say come and I slowly walked into his office and said is their something wrong? and he said please sit down and so I sat at the closest seat and tried to hide the overwhelming look of being nervous as hell and it wasn't helping that Captain Nash wasn't even looking at me and hasn't pulled his eyes away from the computer which is making me so uneasy and so we just sit there for a couple minutes in silence and I was trying not tap my leg super loud so and hoping that Captain Nash can't hear how nervous I am. So after what felt like a life time he finally looks up from the computer and stares at me and I say  look if I am getting fired I am so sorry for whatever I did to get myself fired but before you actually fire me I want to say that I have always wanted this job and even though I have only been here two days I love this job and as I am ranting about wanting to keep my job and then he stopped me and said look Maia I am not firing you I just want to know more about you and because of the incident with Buck I decided to give a little look into your background before this job and I was also curious about how you got a hundred percent on your tests and then I looked you up more and your name came up more then I thought it would, so first I want to thank you for serving your country and you must of been a hell of a soldier to get a medal of honor. Anyways your soldier background explains a lot about you and I wish you would of shared about that part of your life but I can't make you and its understandable that you don't want to especially cause of why you had to leave and as soon as he started about my past I got extremely uncomfortable and didn't actually know that he was going to be able to see all that but I mean he is my boss so I am not to surprised but I really don't want to talk about it with him for anyone, as he was about ask something I could only assume was going to be about my past in the Army I cut him off and leaned for and looked Captain Nash straight in the eyes and said look with all due respect I am glad you are concerned with me and how I might be dealing with a new job somewhat similar to my old one but I am doing fine and I really don't want to talk about anything or share about my past or about the incident so please if you could leave it alone and not talk to anyone else about it that would be a appreciated. He says of course I was not trying to make you feel like you had to share about your past or tell us about what happened I just wanted to make sure the incident isn't going to effect your work here and now I was little pissed off that he suggested just because of stuff I had dealt with in Army was going to effect my job as firefighter but I just said no sir it will not effect the way I do this job and nor will Buck. Unless there is anything else I would like to leave and see what I can help with in the fire station, and he says no you may go and in case you ever need to talk I am here. So I flash a smile and walk out and close his door and finally being able to breath because I was really afraid that he had found out about last night and that I came to work with a broken leg or that I got into another fight with Buck but honestly that one wasn't my fault he started it by being a prick and getting involved in things he has no clue about like usually because on of Bucks specialties is running into things without thinking I am convinced that he just doesn't have a brain. So I walk down stairs where everyone is standing there staring at me like I'm the last steak and so me being me and hating all the attention I'm getting for no reason right now and still annoyed at the fact that, that conversation with Captain Nash even happened, so I give them all a look and say yes? can I help you all with something? And then of course they got Buck to ask the question everyone wanted to know which was If I just got fired and I said nope but I am so glad you were all so eager to hear if I got fired or not, anyways I walk down the stairs to the main area of the fire station and say well is anyone going to show me what to do around here when we aren't on a call and so Hen finally showed me around and how to clean the fire engines and the whole fire station, and then finally it was lunch time so we all sat down to eat and it was so quiet no one wanted to talk to the new girl who's been in and out Captain Nash's office in the last couple days  and so all you could hear was forks hitting the plates other than that no one was talking and all I could think about was the conversation me and Captain Nash had and now all I could think about was my last couple months in the army serving my second tour. 

                                                        Flashback to two years ago.........

It was 2016 and I was halfway through my second tour in Iraq, I am sure you guys were always wondering why in the world a girl like me would chose the army instead of something obviously there is so many other choices in the world but I chose the army and why is that? Well I always hated school for more reasons then one, I was the freak in school I was the weird kid that sat by her self and had absolutely no friends not even one, I was more hated then the plague just because I was different and from England which I got made fun of for a lot and because my family and the way I grew up I was talked about not only by the kids at school but by other families and parents and by random people on the street. I grew up with two druggie parents which everyone knew about and of course that immediately made me a walking disease according to everyone around me. So I spent my childhood and teen years going to school, trying to ignore everyone and then trying to stay out of the house as much as I could with my younger sister Brooklyn and yes I know what you are thinking why in the world would my parents name her Brooklyn well my mom had always wanted to go to Brooklyn but since she was a broke druggie she knew she would never be able to go to Brooklyn, so hence naming her daughter Brooklyn. Anyways sadly Brooklyn didn't make it as far in life as I had wished even though I tried everything to keep her safe from my parents and everyone around us and her death hit me so hard I didn't want to do anything I didnt even want to move and it was my fault she's dead in the first place it was the only time I left her alone for an hour and came back and she was on the floor with pools of blood around her anyways she was one of the reasons I wanted to leave this place and do something good with my life because I knew otherwise I would ended up one of two ways dead or in jail for life but at that time I didn't know what to do at the time but the longer I was here in this town and at school it was getting harder to know what to do and then sophomore year of high school our school was having a career fair and I was about go skip and go walk to the closest gas station but I happened to walk by as I was about leave and I saw a booth that caught my attention and as all of may have guessed yes it was US Army booth so I mustered up all the courage I had and walked up and talked to them and that afternoon I had decided that, that was what I was going to do with my life after high school I was going to finish I school and then leave for the army and never look back and thats exactly what I did. I went to Texas for basic training and then I ended up going to a different base in Texas and from there I did one and a half tours it would of been too if the second one didn't go horribly wrong............to be continued