Philophobia

Chapter Thirteen: I'm In Love Again

In The Middle Of The Night

Malia's Pov

I had trouble sleeping. I was thinking about Wyatt, he was on my mind all day.

After our little talk and when he kissed me on the cheek, he's all I've been thinking about.

I've never felt this way. I only ever felt this way when I was with Ben.

After we broke up and I left Auradon I promised myself I wouldn't fall in love again, in fear of getting heartbroken again.

I promised I would never find another guy that would just break my heart like Ben did.

But Wyatt....he's different. He's sweet, nice, caring, and protective.

The way he held me in his arms, the way he cared for Emily when he first met her.

When he kissed me on my cheek I felt my heart beating really fast.

Everything about Wyatt was perfect. He was perfect.

But...maybe he doesn't feel the same way. I don't even know if I'm ready for another relationship.

Not after my last one.

I stood up from my bed and made my way over to my balcony. I closed the door and stood outside.

I looked up at the sky and admired the stars and the moon. I walked closer to admire the view.

(Me)
Time's been ticking, hearts are running
Think that Cupid's up to something
You ask me how I feel, I say nothing

But lately colors seems so bright
And the stars light up the night
My feet, they feel so light
I'm ignoring all the signs

I keep on frontin'
Yeah, I stay bluffin'
I keep you wondering
Keep you hunting for my lovin'

I'm trying to deny these feelings, trying to stop myself from falling in love so I don't get heartbroken again, but I can't.

(Me)
But I crave us hugging
Yeah, I stay stubborn
'Cause I can't admit that you got all the strings
And know just how tug 'em

I think I'm in love again
(In my head, yeah, you're in my head)
I think I'm in love again
(In my head, yeah, you're in my head)

I stared at the stars and smiled.

(Me)
I didn't think it could be true
Let alone that it would be you
I think I'm in love again
(I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love)

My heart's pacing
I'm confused, I'm dazing
I saw something I never seen in you, it's got me shaking

Wyatt is amazing, his personality, his eyes, his beautiful smile, his cute face. Everything about him makes my heart race.

(Me)
I must be hallucinating
I hear it happens, I'm just saying
Babe, I'm just saying

Someone give me some paper
Someone give me some crayons
I'm feeling like a child
I need something to play on

I'm trying hard to trust you
When you say give me your hand
Baby, I'm falling
I hope you catch me when I land

I sat down on the chair on my balcony and sighed.

(Me)
I think I'm in love again
(In my head, yeah, you're in my head) Oh, yeah, yeah
I think I'm in love again
(In my head, yeah, you're in my head) Oh

I didn't think it could be true
Let alone that it would be you
I think I'm in love again
(I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love)

I smiled dreamily and started imaging me and him together.

(Me)
In my dreams, you're the Dutch and I'm the Dutchess
And your blunts are always loose
So I'm in charge of rolling Dutches
And we gettin' so high

We always get the munchies
And we go for early brunches
That turn into late lunches
And we ain't got a label

We're just rolling with the punches
I make fun of your belly
And tell you to do some crunches

I giggled to myself and got up from the chair.

(Me)
And you say "yeah, well your ass jiggles
Go and do some lunges"
I say "fuck you"
While I'm thinking of you as my husband, hmm

I think I'm in love
I think I'm in love again
(In my head, yeah, you're in my head)
Baby, I think I'm in love again
I think I'm in love again

(In my head, yeah, you're in my head) Oh
I didn't think it could be true
Let alone that it would be you
I think I'm in love again
(I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love)

I looked at the sky once again and smiled and closed my eyes.

(Me)
I think I'm in love again

I opened my eyes and sighed. I really am starting to catch feelings for Wyatt.

Something I thought I would never feel again after Ben hurt me.

"I like you Wyatt, I really do like you. No matter how much I try to deny these feelings I can't because you're always on my mind. I'm just scared you won't feel the same way" I sighed.

"Just please, please don't hurt me like he did" I said.

I went back inside, closed the balcony door and walked back to my bed.

I snuggled closer to my blanket. Hopefully tomorrow won't be awkward.

I closed my eyes and let myself fall asleep.

Wyatt's Pov

I smiled after Malia entered her room again. I heard everything.

Her singing, her feelings for me, her insecurities, and her fear.

'Don't worry Malia, I like you too' I thought with a smile. It broke my heart that she thinks I don't like her, that I don't feel the same way she does.

I walked back into the forest, with a look of determination on my face.

'I'm going to show you how much I love you, how much you mean to me, I promise I won't hurt you like your ex did, I promise' I thought.

I smiled before walking away and heading back to the den to get some rest.

Tomorrow is gonna be a great day.