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Part nine-Airport thoughts

We arrived at the airport after a 20 minute drive full of listening to our favourite music. Traffic was pretty good and I was happy we got there slightly early as it gave me some leeway to think straight.

i grabbed my suitcase out of the boot and pulled it along behind me as myself and chris walked hand in hand to check in. We both knew this was the last time for a while that we would be able to hold hands and be like this. This was a minority of what i was going to miss whilst i was away,along with everything else about chris and our relationship.

The way he holds me close at night like its our last,the way he's that couple of inches taller than me,the fact he's the sweetest person ive ever come across,the way that he's always there. The fact that he's mine,my world. In that moment i realised this is what i was leaving behind,i was about to step onto a plane and leave my world behind,was i really going to be able to do that?

"melly?you okay?" chris asked inturupting my day dream.

I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at chris briefly. "yeah um im good."

"Come on,they just called your flight." He looked to the floor and then back into my eyes,i saw the pain this was causing him and it hurt me.

Having already checked in and given in my suitcase on that wierd conveyor belt thing that takes away your luggage i stood up,grabbed my carry on bag and began to walk towards boarding. I looked at chris as we walked and his body language told a thousand stories without him even having to say a word. He stood slightly hunched over looking at the ground most of the walk with his hands tucked away in his hoodie.

I knew this was what i needed,to get away from this place where everything went wrong for me,well everything except chris. Chris is the only good thing that has happened to me in this place,he is my rock. All of this made it even harder to board this plane and go.

"well this is it then i guess." chris told me holding back tears.

"yeah,im going to miss you yanno." tears began to fall form my eyes and down my cheeks.

"hey,dont start crying you'll set me off." he said wiping away my tears. you'd think we werent going to see eachother for years but in reality it was only going to be a few months but this was a big thing for us. Given the fact we had never spent more than a week apart the thought of spending months apart hurt but i needed to do this for me.

Chris hugged me tighter than ever before and thats when i began to re think what i was going to do,i had about 2 minutes to decide whether i was going to pick up and leave for 3 months or call it all off and stay here with chris and his family. I could either go and be without my happiness or stay and be surrounded by sadness. time was running out to make this decision. Do i stay or go?