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Pushing myself closer towards
the edge of the cliff as I consider myself
a Muslim, but when things go wrong
I detach my heart from the truth,
letting go of the religion, seeing it as a waste
of time while running away from the group

My heart can't take any more hurt
as the pain grows at a rapid rate,
dropping the religion as others don't know
as my small ego continues to grow,
but when the good times are here
I'll be the first to show

Committing when it feels right for me
as I say to myself "I deserve better
than what God guarantees",
losing the dunya and the akhira
with the actions I took,
realising that is truly the ultimate loss

As I never earned anything worthwhile
with my faith being one which is fake
as I can't even have trust in my Rabb,
my iman disappearing in the blink of an eye,
when I should've asked for firmness
in my heart for the most difficult of times
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A poem based on (Quran 22:11)

‎وَمِنَ النَّاسِ مَن يَعْبُدُ اللَّهَ عَلَىٰ حَرْفٍ فَإِنْ أَصَابَهُ خَيْرٌ اطْمَأَنَّ بِهِ وَإِنْ أَصَابَتْهُ فِتْنَةٌ انقَلَبَ عَلَىٰ وَجْهِهِ خَسِرَ الدُّنْيَا وَالْآخِرَةَ ذَٰلِكَ هُوَ الْخُسْرَانُ الْمُبِينُ

And among men is he who serves Allah (standing) on the verge, so that if good befalls him he is satisfied therewith, but if a trial afflict him he turns back headlong; he loses this world as well as the hereafter; that is a manifest loss
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