Princess...

Chapter 30

Accalia 

After slowly eating half of my plate, the confidence I once had was gone, replaced with the fear that I'd gone too far. It was such a big risk to defy wolf etiquette like that, and I expected there to be a meeting about my defiance set up before the day was done. Once I'd finished tidying up the kitchen, I moved into the dining room, freezing in the doorway when I caught sight of Alpha Lupus still sat in his seat, eyes already on me

"I'm sorry, Alpha Lupus. I didn't realise you were still in here..." I mumbled, bowing my head after placing the cleaning supplies on the cupboard to my left. He stood and I stayed put this time, begging my inner wolf to give me strength as the Alpha came closer to me

"Where's that confidence gone from before, princess?" My eyes widened at the nickname but shook my head, still keeping my head bowed. My inner wolf wasn't cooperating this time, jumping wildly internally as I battled to keep submitting to the Alpha in front of me. Before I could respond, Beta Deryn and Delta Kurt entered the dining room, and Alpha Lupus moved away from me, going to greet his immediate command. As they conversed, I kept my head down and listened to the conversation about training regimes for tomorrow. "Rogue Ace." The voice was soft and I snapped my head up to meet the startling hazel eyes that were now back on me. A quick glance off to the right showed Beta Deryn in a look of pure shock; how dare I, a rogue, look at an Alpha without his permission? Delta Kurt on the Alpha's left shook his head, knowing that I was going to be punished for my defiance now. My inner wolf knew this and gave me that golden spurt of confidence I'd been missing

"Yes, Alpha Lupus?" Even the startling hazel eyes widened in shock when he realised what I'd done. Disrespecting an Alpha like that was punishable by death; if I was going to die, why not make it count and be executed for really doing something wrong? Alpha Lupus quickly recovered and through the golden flecks in his irises, there was a burning emotion of something I couldn't decipher, though I tried hard as we maintained eye contact. He moved towards me but I was ready, keeping myself steady as he caught my arm, dragging me with him away from the Beta and Delta

"Excuse us, gentleman." The Alpha nodded to the two men before tugging me down a few hallways, stopping suddenly when no one was around. He turned to face me and my knees shook with fear and anticipation, unprepared for whatever was about to happen. "Damn it, princess, you just had to didn't you?" He whispered before descending on me, making my back bump softly into the wall and the calloused hands I'd missed grazed the skin on my face. We were no more than a few centimetres apart now, I could feel his warm breath and closed my eyes, absorbing the feeling as my inner wolf danced joyfully inside of me. Before I could process what was happening, soft lips attacked mine in a bruising kiss and my eyes shot open, before closing them as I melted into the feeling. We stayed like that for a few moments before the Alpha growled against my lips, pushing himself away and storming off towards the West Wing. I was still in shock, ghosting the outline with my finger where his mouth had just been. My thoughts were a haze and I didn't even know where to begin processing the recent events. Why would he kiss me? I'm just a rogue worker that he brought here against my will. Why did he storm off like that? Probably due to the fact that he'd just kissed someone from outside of his pack; was it disgust he felt? I couldn't read him and sighed, collecting myself and stumbling back into the kitchen where Raula embraced me. Beta Deryn was stood off to the side, eyes wide when he realised I wasn't dead

"Goddess Ace, what happened?" She placed a firm kiss on the top of my head and held me at arm's length, checking for any new cuts and bruises. I shrugged, hugging the taller woman back before walking over to the fridge and opening a bottle of water. I had no words to explain the events that had just occurred, and didn't want any rumours spreading. An Alpha and a rogue couldn't get involved; you could only be with your mate, the Moon Goddess taught us that much. "The rest of the guys are in the living room watching a movie if you want to join them?" Raula offered and I shook my head, giving her a smile and nodding in respect towards Beta Deryn who was still eyeing me suspiciously. I got changed into the same workout clothes as always before exiting the mansion, jogging lightly over to the edge of the field in a manner that I realised had become routine. Maybe I was hoping that the Alpha would join me out here? It was a strange thought to have, especially as the closer he got, the closer I came to spilling the truth about my old pack. I jogged a few laps keeping my eyes open for Alpha Lupus, who never showed. I broke out into a run now, trying to ignore the strange feeling buried into the pit of my stomach. I couldn't fall for an Alpha; I didn't even want to mate with a Warrior like Z'ev, I wasn't joining a pack and ranking up for some conceited asshole like the Salt Lake City's leader. Deciding that I would just ignore the feelings, I pushed myself until I became exhausted, sooner than before no doubt due to my appetite declining rapidly over the last few days. It was the punishment I needed, to prove to the Moon Goddess that I was serious about earning her forgiveness.