wish she wasn't you (Wilbur x reader)

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Y/N's pov

That eye contact... I felt again like the first time i saw him. It was just so... natural as now. His eyes are the most beatiful i've ever seen in my life. His curly hair are so fluffly. And his strong character, that's why we're best friends. Cause he CAN make me smile. I feel totally different with him. I look lonely, he can fix that.

We were still hugging and i put my head on his chest. His heart beat was calming me. That void inside me. That void that i couldn't fill, he can. Every moment i spent with him feels so good and i don't have to overthink when i'm with him. I know that this feeling it's normal but not for me. I wished so bad for a normal life. Not with overthinking, Insecurities and more. We were like two magnets, I couldn't get away from him. But when we heard a noise from the door I pushed him so fast. My parents come with so much food. Will helped them to set the table. We started eating and Will said

"The doctor said that Y/N can go home today."

Really?! I'm very happy. My mum said

My dad stand up and hugged me. Yup... That's the first time I feel that happy and free. I needed that love and affection from them.

~a couple hours later~

My parents finished signing the last papers to get out of the hospital. Me and Wilbur decided to ask my parents if they could get us at my house. They drived us at my home then they left us there.

Hey Y/N

Yes?

What do you think if we go out for a walk?

Sounds great.

We started walking in a quite zone of my town where we could talk. There wasn't anybody, neither cars, just me and Will. It was really cold, this time I had covered up with a much heavier coat. The sky was pretty gray, it looked like it was going to rain... I love rain.

Look! There are some benches over there. Let's go sit there.

We ran to one of those benches and had a seat. We started joking, laughing. Another little detail... it was snowing! So we started making snowballs and throwing them at each other and continuing to laugh. We were fighting with snow. Wilbur remembered that today he was going back to London and suddenly stopped.

Hey, what's wrong?

Do you wanna really know?

Of course, i care about you

I told you that i will come back to London today.

Oh yeah... Well, if you want to go now i'm gonna just call my parents and they will drive you to the station.

Not now, later. Now let's have fun!

He smiled at me and we continued fighting.

~6:00pm~

Will was getting ready to get back to London. We heard the door knocking and I went to check it out. It was my parents, Will took his suitcase and we went to the station. When we arrived in the parking lot my parents greeted him but did not enter the station. I instead went with him to wait for the train together. We waited about 10 minutes then the train arrived. He looked stood right in front of me and looked me in the eyes. He grabbed my face in his hands then he said

Sorry if i didn't kiss you, but it's obvious i wanted to.

I was really confused. What does this mean? He smiled a me for a sec that started to go away. I was staring at him still shocked and i didn't said anything. He was looking at me from the window then he waved at me when the train started moving. I slowly started walking out the station. When i get to the car, my dad asked me what's wrong but i just said that everything's ok. They left me at my house. I lay on the bed looking at the ceiling.

So what i'm gonna do now? He said what he said. So that's the confirm that he likes me. I've never aked myself if I feel that way for him before. I'm so confused. First thing, don't panic. Take pen and paper and write all the fellings that you feel when you're with him, ok Y/N? So... *writing*

He's my bestfriend. He's very special for me. He makes me smile and laugh. I can tell him everything i want cause he doesn't judge me. He helps me so much with my mental problems. He loves me as i do and he tells me everytime. He's such a really respectuful person and he didn't offend me ever. He's gorgeous and-

OK... No, no, no. Maybe i like him too? I don't know. Or it's just normal feeling this type of things for a best friend. Yeah, i'll think more about it...

I got up to go to the bathroom and started taking off my shirt to take a shower. before I entered I put my hands on the sink, looking into the mirror, staring at myself.

Nah... I don't think he really likes me, he has never seen my body. I bet he wouldn't like it anyway. He has no reason to like it.

After that I decided to take all my clothes off and get into the shower. When I finished I immediately went to change and put on my pajamas and then jumped into bed quickly and slowly fell asleep.

~next 2 days, December 22th~

I didn't write to him again, I needed time to understand, but he didn't try to explain either. Besides, I should go to him in a few days, but at this point I don't know what to do. He's my only friend but no one knows, so who else could I ask for help?

That's when I immediately thought of Tommy. Well yes, it would have been very embarrassing but it's better than nothing.

tommyinnit

Hello Tommy

Hi, how are you?

pretty fine

I wanted to ask you something

sure

Idk if that makes you a bit
uncomfortable, but i'm in
a weird situation and i can't
ask Will

That's fine, tell me

So there's one of my guy friends.
But a couple days ago told me that
he likes me. The problem is that I
don't know if i like him back and I
just don't know what to do.

Oh... Well you have
to find out. Just take
these days to think
about it. If you need
help for this, text me

Yes. I need help. I writed all
the things that I like of him but
I'm still so confused cause I've never
though of him as my boyfriend.

That's a really weird situation.
I think that you like a person
when he/she makes you feel
totally different. Makes you
laugh and other love stuff...

That's exactly how I feel

So why are u confused?

Idk, maybe my insecurities

Y/N everyone on this planet
could tell that you're beatiful,
seriously.

Thank you :')

a/n
sorry it this chapter is weird and cringe lmao HAKAKHAHAJ