monitor; | spam/miscellaneous

- deleting a few chapters in this book (including this one)

i have been thinking about a lot of things recently. i just turned 16 a few weeks ago and i feel like everything has been going really really fast to the point that i can't control anything anymore (does that make sense?)

so my parents and i have been talking about what career path i was going to take since im going to be a senior in high school and thinking about is just,,, stressful. i didn't really expect to come this far in the first place.

i don't even know what to do with my life after college. i really wish i could be a really famous singer/songwriter just like the people i look up to but thinking about, being famous is just scary.

i don't even know if i'll ever be a famous singer in the near future but since i chose that path, i'm kind of nervous about what if it does or doesn't happen.

if i ever do get famous though, it makes me feel a bit anxious abt what if some people would see my cringe-worthy works/others would know me as that person who writes these things in a cringy website.

idk i guess apparently i'm afraid of fame.

looking back to the things i've posted here, i may have not thought about them through. i was completely clueless about where my life was heading at the time. now that i'm a little older (and i guess more wiser?), i've decided that i'll be hiding my identity from now on.

so like basically
if you knew who i am/what i looked like,
✨no u didn't✨

(unless if u want to be close friends, i'm willing to show you)

i'll be deleting all the insensitive/cringey/personal things i have posted in this spam and on some of my books (that include my face in it bc jesus why did i just do that)

i'll also be deleting this chapter in,,, i guess about a week? idk

possibly might change things up here as well so yeah just a heads up lmao k bye