always YOURS ( On Hold )

chapter 3

Mews pov

( 5years ago )

I was sitting on bench near my campus and completing my assignment . Suddenly someone approached me and called my name
   
   P'mew  are you free ?

I turn my head to look at the owner of the voice . I guess he is my junior.he looks short and cute with his chipmunk cheeks . I give him small smile and nod  my head .

P'mew  will you be my boyfriend . I like you a lot .

He told me straight looking into my eyes . All I could see was his sincere confession . I laugh at his straightforward nature and ask him to sit besides me .

Mew :- ai nong what's your name ?

Tar :- p' my name is Parinya Angsanan. You can call me tar.

( He replies cutely . As I stare at his face his cheeks are tinted with blush .)

Mew:- what do you know about me that your directly asking me to be your boyfriend ? I asked him curiously .

Tar :- p' whenever I look at you their' s a  strange attraction that pulls me towards you .you never noticed me but I have a crush on you from last 1 year.

Mew :- seriously ! May be your just attracted to my physically ?

Tar :- ( he heaves a sigh ) p' can u give me chance . If you don't feel anything then we can atleast be friends.no need to rush let's take baby steps ?

He asked me hopefully.i would be lying if I say I didn't get attracted to his soft personality.

    I think for few minutes and I told him that lets try being  friends for now . He nods his head vigorously. I laugh at his actions. We exchanged numbers and I bid him good bye .

We used to text eachother almost everyday, slowly we started meeting even outside the campus .

As the days are increasing the distance between our hearts decreased.their isn't a day I don't see him or talk to him.

   3 months passed it was his birthday I surprised him by asking him to be my boyfriend.it was one of the most beautiful moments .as soon as I asked tears started flowing through his eyes he nodded his head saying yes as he couldn't speak becoz of happiness I hug him tightly .

slowly we started getting closure not just emotionally, physically too .

We used spend lot of time at his place because he used to stay alone as his parents are in abroad .making love , cuddling , cooking, going University together  became our daily routine . I even introduced him to my parents they were happy as long as am happy.

But he couldn't introduce to his parents because their parents are against same sex relationship .

just 2 days before our first anniversary suddenly their parents visited him .he lied his parents telling them I was his roommate and tutoring him. I know we had to face this situation .but at that moment it pissed me core because their parents planned his wedding with the daughter of their business partners. I angrily left his place and didn't attend his calls for 24hrs.

After coming from their I went directly to my home switched off my phone washed myself and laid on bed before I could think about the situation I slept .

I didn't know how many hours I slept but I woke up as some one was banging my door .I lazily open the door. I was shocked to see p'thorn dejected helpless .

Mew :- p' what happend are you alright.is anything wrong I asked him worriedly .

Thorn :- put on some clothes.its an emergency we are  going to a place he told .

I was confused but did as he said.
But he took me to a hospital I started feeling nervous I ask him what's wrong he doesn't answer my questions just take me to emergency wards.

Taking each step behind him my anxiety perks .

As he pushes the curtains everything blurs infront of me .tar is lying on the bed . machines are attached to him I try to hold his hand but his elder brother slaps my Face before I could question him tar calls my name

Tar:- p' am sorry ...am sorry p'mew  forgive me .I love you so muc-- before he could even complete the line tha machine beeps showing straight line .

I fell on my knees as I know I couldn't bring back to life .

   " It's your fault . He fought with our parents just for you but what did you do switched off your phone and backed off like a looser .he came to surprise you as it's your anniversary but he met with an accident " .
its your fault shouts his brother .

I couldn't even utter a single words .

I couldn't stop my tears flowing and bluring my vision . I know blaming myself will not save him but we are humans we blame ourselves right. I couldn't even stand on my feet .

My world collapsed the moment he took his last breath . He just didn't leave empty handed but he took away my happiness with him .I was screaming his name asking him to forgive but even after I know he won't come back ever again ....

I woke up from the nightmare.as I open my eyes I find myself in an unfamiliar places .p'thorn came towards me my mother was crying. My father was holding my hand . I can see saline attached to me . Am lying on a hospital bed . As I remembered all the memories in the form of nightmare  tears started flowing form  my eyes .

I have to forgive myself atleast for my family .it's been 4 long years .  Looking at them like this is making me insane .

I look at my family and try smile slightly my brother hugs me thightly .

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With this I end mew's past . Hope you guys like it . please vote and comment .let me know your thoughts about the chapter . Please forgive me if you find spelling mistakes . Stay safe 💟 .love you all.