Promising The Moon - 《Jaywon》

no.9

He saw the time  and he falls asleep , couldn't wait to wake up so he can meet jungwon, his life saver .

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Waking up by the same dream that he had , nothing changes , his dream was the same. Checking the time, it was near 4 so he got up. Wearing sweet pants and tshirt. Slippers on .

He looks through the window and he saw him , he saw jungwon at the yard as always looking up at jay with a smile on . The smile that jay loves to see it every time.

Jay just waves at him and goes down , where  he jumped his ankle twisted and made him to trip and fall on jungwon, since jay is more big than jungwon, it made jungwon to fall too. They both fall . Jay on top of jungwon.

"Oh" jay said and looks down at jungwon, jungwons eyes were wide and looking up at jay , his hand into fist , he didn't know what to do while jay forgot to get up cuz he was shocked at what happened .

"Um....can you get up?" Jungwon asks ,jay shakes his head and immediately got up, clearing his throat ..."um...I'm sorry" jay said, feeling embarrassed "it's okay...you didn't mean it " jungwon says trying to sound calm , inside he was burning, his cheeks red , he was blushing.

"I guess so...um ...let's go" jay said and walks of ,he didn't know what to say to this , it was accident. And it was Jay's first time and jungwons too having physical touch. It felt warm. His heart filled with warm for some seconds.

Walking and they arrived to their spot sitting down. "Sorry for earlier " jay spoke first, they were more comfortable with each other now but they got a little awkward at what happened just now .

"Hehe...its fine dont worry about it" jungwon said , when he talks his dimples were appearing in his cheeks cutely. Jay nods at jungwon.

Jungwon then noticed something wrong with jay so he decided to ask him .

"What's wrong with your face?"jungwon asks now looking more in his face , noticing the bruises and the band aid .

Jay didn't want to tell his problems to no one but he is jungwon and jungwon isn't just a 'no one ' for jay .

"Oh" jay said and touched his bruise, winced a little cuz he touched it ."dont worry about it ...its nothing " jay said but jungwon didn't stop.

"But.....please tell me who did this to you?" Jungwon asked , jungwons heart was sad because jay got hurt,  he didn't want to see jay get hurt.

Jay let out a sigh " fine....I'll tell you " jay said and keeps quiet. He took a breath, he will tell Jungwon everything, he knows it's to soon into having deep talks but jungwon isn't a stranger anymore .

"My....my dad did it" jay said looking down between his thighs, on the sand .

Jungwon looks at him , surprised "your dad?...but...but why?" Jungwon asks , he felt bad for Jay .

"...its...its because I'm gay " jay said again, those words hurts to say . He hated speaking about this but he still did .

"O...why.....fuck- sorry " jungwon apologized for cursing and jay told him that its fine to curse .

"But ...aren't you his son?...he shouldn't be like that " jungwon said , he couldn't understand why was Jay's dad like that .

Jay looks down , holding his tears , he was to embarrassed to cry in front of jungwon. "I dont know too....and yeah I am his son but ...he is homophobic " jay said , sighs cuz he felt so tight in his heart .

Jungwon having a sad face on , jay was good person, he shouldn't be deserving all those things.

"And why did he hurt you." Jungwon asks , he wanted to know , jay is someone close to him .

"Cuz ........I guess since the day I told him and my mom that I'm gay they hate me and  now I'm......I'm grounded " jay said.

The words shocked jungwon , it's his first time knowing someone's secrets , he wasn't a person to mind into peoples business but for jay he became one .

"What....jay are you okay ?" Jungwon asks.

Jay nods "don't worry about me ...I'm doing fine " jay said and jungwon nods .

"As I was saying,  last night he came to my room and asked if I still love boys and I said yes so he punched me and yeah...this is how I got the bruise " jay spoke . Slowly shaking by thinking of it . Jay's face filled with fear and jungwon noticed it .

"Dont worry hyung ....I'm sure that you will be fine at the end " jungwon said and Jay looks at him.

"Why are you being nice with me? Dont give me false hopes" jay said to jungwon.

"I'm not being nice....I'm just saying what I feel .....jay hyung...I swear one day everything will be fine" jungwon said , with a serious face and his tone serious, it made jay to giggle at it but this giggle turned into pain , he felt his eyes becoming wet . Ready to cry .

Jungwon noticed it and just mouthed a "no" and shakes his head saying no but Jay's tears fall down , he couldn't hold them back anymore , he wanted to scream and take this out by screaming but to scared to do that.

Jay was crying now in front of jungwon and jungwon didn't know what to do about it . Jay placed his head in his palms , he wanted to hid his face, he couldn't look at jungwon.

Jungwon looks at him and he placed his hand around Jay's shoulders and moved him closer to him , he made Jay's head to rest in his shoulder.

This time jay cried even more , this feels nice in his heart , having someone who cares about you . It felt nice.

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Thank you. Hope you don't find this book boring.