I keep playing in my head the things you'd say. Or maybe I'm just hoping you would say them because those are the ones I need to hear right now. I try to imagine how your hug would feel and how you'd smell.
I keep replaying the last thing you said to me. The last thing I remember you saying to me. You say you'd pick me up when I was scared. When I was overthinking it all again. Well this whole situation scared the living shit out of me but you can't come and pick me up 'cause I'm paying debt for the things she did. And it fucking terrifies me to know that there is a chance I will never see you again just because of that.
But if I told you how much I loved you, would you believe me? If I told you how much I needed you, would you come and rescue me?
If I was burning my mind down once again, would you come and save me?
Because once upon a time you were my reason to stay. Now your just another crossed out name on my list. The name of a person I once knew but don't recognize the face of anymore. And once upon a time I was alive too. Now you look me in the eye and see a dead girl.
And that is what terrifies me the most.
- M
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The Moon Knows We Are In Love
Poetryjust some random thoughts that I wrote down which became these poems enjoy <3
