sÆnts - nct, nahyuck

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"donghyuck, baby... open your eyes..."

the human's eyes fluttered open as the first thing he saw was the worried face of his boyfriend.

"nana..." he whispered, wrapping his arms around the boy's neck and pulling him in a hug.

"oh my god... donghyuck..." jaemin gladly hugged back. "i was so scared..."

donghyuck breathed in jaemin's calming scent, pulling the boy's body closer to his.

they were lying on haechan's bed. jaemin had placed donghyuck there an hour ago, and he hadn't left his side ever since.

"what happened to you? why were you half naked?" jaemin asked.

"i-i... i woke up at a girl's house. she had undressed me." donghyuck explained.

"haechan..." jaemin sighed.

"does he have a girlfriend?" donghyuck asked.

"no. he has multiple sex interests, i think." jaemin told.

"w-why...?"

"he's like that."

donghyuck bit his bottom lip to prevent him to quiver.

"i'm not like this..." he said.

"i know, baby."

"i don't like girls..." he mumbled. "i love you..."

"i love you too, donghyuck."

"but he... he's not like me..."

"you're two different persons, baby." jaemin explained.

"are haechan and i like you and NA?" donghyuck asked.

jaemin sighed.

everything was so confusing.

haechan and donghyuck had split personalities.

just like NA and jaemin.

they were all different souls living in the same body.

something hard to deal with.

but jaemin knew how to switch personalities.

donghyuck didn't.

and, there was another detail...

"do you love him too?" donghyuck asked carefully.

"no. i don't." jaemin replied.

"but he's me... he has my body. he has my looks..."

"baby, i love you for who you are." jaemin whispered. "i love you for your personality. i hate haechan's one-night stands, i hate haechan's smoking, i hate haechan's bitchy attitude... you aren't like that."

tears started to cascade down donghyuck's cheeks.

jaemin tried wiping them off quickly, but they were falling in a too high amount.

"baby, why are you crying...?"

"i-i'm ruining your life..." he sobbed.

"what? no! donghyuck don't say that..."

"i'm both your lover and your enemy..." he continued sobbing.

"baby, haechan and you are two different persons..."

"and it's hurting you."

jaemin was taken aback by the sudden statement.

honestly, yes, it was hurting him.

and he had seen it in the past months.

he had seen donghyuck a few hours, and then he had disappeared for a few months.

he had even asked himself if reviving donghyuck had been a good idea.

so, yes, having both haechan and donghyuck in the same body hurt him.

"n-no... it's not."

"stop lying!" donghyuck yelled. "i'm your boyfriend, jaemin. i know when you're okay and when you're not."

"and what did you want me to do?!" jaemin replied on the same tone. "to never revive you?!"

"well, none of us would have been hurt then!"

"are you trying to tell me i did something wrong?!"

"i just want you to realise that i'm hurting you!"

"i don't care!"

"yes, you do! you wouldn't be crying if you didn't!"

jaemin lifted his hand, placing it on his cheek to realise it was wet.

he was crying.

his emotions were bloated up inside of him, and they were slowly cracking.

"what do you want me to do then?" jaemin asked.

"i don't know..." donghyuck replied. "but we need to stop."

"to stop what?"

"seeing each other."

"what?! donghyuck, what are you saying."

"you don't deserve to be hurt like that." donghyuck whispered.

"you don't either, donghyuck. but we can't stop everything like that."

"it's the only solution, nana..."

"what, no!"

jaemin placed a hand over each of donghyuck's shoulders, trying to shake him to put some ore sense into him.

donghyuck seemed to be in a daze, as if he wasn't realising what he has just told his boyfriend.

"donghyuck, please, don't do that!" jaemin sobbed.

"why are you crying...?"

"why?! you're asking me to get away from you, how could i not cry?" jaemin exclaimed.

"but... you're talking to donghyuck, right?"

jaemin halted his movements, and he looked at the human sitting in front of him.

he didn't need too long to understand what was happening.

those eyes he was looking in weren't the same pained eyes.

haechan was back.

donghyuck had disappeared, right after a painfully ambiguous conversation.

and jaemin had no idea when he would be back again.