Lost 🥺 .

pregnant ❤️ .

so it's been 3 months since me & kentrell broke up and i been really sad like really sad but no too sad to where i loose another baby i've been tryna

hold myself together but it's hard taking care of me & my child by myself today was my doctor appointment i always text kentrell & try to get him to come

but he never do i just wanted him here for my baby & he never here for me or her it's getting outta hand

kentrell
hey i gotta doctore appointment at @2 can you come or not ?

ex 
umm maybe next time busy with kay sorry 😭

kentrell
ok 

i wasn't finna beg or argue with kentrell i told him about the appointment if he don't wanna be here that's him i don't care it's was 1:00 and i just pulled up to the clinic

i like to be early cause most likely they gone get me early so i come a hour early every time i still got kentrell name gotta get that change quick because we ain't together

they called my name i be so excited even tho kentrell not here oh well i'll get use to it

"hey gaulden dad here today" he said

i frown nope not today he busy maybe next week i said smiling

"well your baby is doing fine there you lil girl" he said rubbing the camera over my stomach

awnn omg how many months am i i can't wait anymore she need to come now i told him

"your 5 months 4 more to go and you meet you baby" he said smiling

i smiled & said thank you i walk out and text kentrell i don't know i text him after ever time

kentrell
umm the baby come in 4 months i was thinking we could talk about her

ex
oh shii i forgot about my other lil girl but yea where you wanna meet ?

kentrell
umm we don't have too meet but it would be great if you come to my next appointment maybe

ex
well i don't know kay be having hers the same of yours and i gotta be there for my girl so 

kentrell
um k nvm congratulations btw  💗

ex
kay said thanks & you too 🤞🏼

i just close my phone it's always kay this ion even care for dude i just want him in my baby life if there's anything i wanna see my child smile kentrell ain't even being supportive

& i need all the support i can get my mom don't mess with me i just wish my brother was here to meet my lil girl she would have the best uncles ever

i notice i was crying and wipe my tears i just made a post on ig i know fans was gone know who i was talking about but i ain't care

@Kodi
never understood why people treat me how they treat me but it's fine one day they gone need me the most 😢 .

@nba_youngboy what you did

user: girl what's wrong 💔

user: you gotta keep going 🤞🏼🥺
↪️ "so why aren't you smiling" 🥰😂

i laugh at the girl comment that's my sing and i ain't gone lie i was sad but not anymore if kentrell don't wanna be in my baby life that's fine

i'm done tryna get him to be in her life he don't want in okay i guess we can play this game bet i got in the shower & played my music cleaning up then told my lil baby a goodnight

"yo daddy acting up but it's fine he gone wanna see you & it's a nope i love you fatty" and kiss my hand placing it on my stomach i love her i do i'm thinking about name her kailia , kia , kiyah or kira

so many names & i got no help for nobody it's okay my blessing coming soon i just went to sleep for the rest of the night imma let kentrell know tomorrow