The Scholarship || DREAMNOTFOUND

Chapter 13 (Dream) ✔︎

the car ride home was silent—
me and george sat in silence in the car once more
"damn.. this is giving me deja vu "
i remember thinking to myself as i glanced over at george
" gogs? " i said to him—
i could see his eye turn slightly to look over at me but it quickly went back to the road

" does sapnap know?.. "
he asked as my eyes widened and quickly going back down as i looked at my feet before mumbling under my breath
" no, he doesn't " i responded

" were you ever going to tell him? "

my body slumped back into the chair as i felt a wave of guilt wash over me
" i- i don't know "

" so you mean to tell me, that you were just going to leave?!
and not say anything to your friend who's pretty much your brother? "

" hey! i was going to tell him george!
you have no room to say anything—
considering i pretty much ditched him to make you happy! "

BADUMP

i covered my mouth and clenched my chest in shock at what i had just said to george
i began to tremble as i saw his grip tighten on the wheel of the car
" no.. that's not what i meant" i said with a shake in my voice
" i'm sorry "

silence fills the car once more—
until george makes a large turn and parks in front of a park we were passing by
it catches me by surprise but i looked over at him
and he had his face buried in between his arms and the wheel of the now parked car—
" no.. i'm the one who's sorry dream "
as i raise my brow in confusion— he lifts his head slightly and looks out into the infinite rainy london night sky

" the reason why i knew right away you were sick, was because my mom had the exact same thing you did—
the only difference was.. she didn't tell anyone,
she kept it to herself—
she didn't even tell my dad—
and she took it with her— "

he slowly let his hand slide off the grip he had on the wheel and slumped his head forward
even in the dark.. i could still hear him holding back the urge to cry
" my sister minx also died in a car accident—
she was in the car with my mom when it happened, mom blamed herself for her death and ultimately payed her price for it— and now.. she's gone "

he looks up at me and i could see the glistening tears that streamed down georges cheeks as the shadows of raindrops fell from the big window in front of us
" i'm sorry for everything i've cause up until now dream—
the kiss—
the food fight—
the sapnap thing—
everything—
i'm so sorry..
but please don't leave and not say anything please"

he sobbed between talking to me— i'd be lying if i said i didn't feel a sense of guilt for leaving everyone in the dark
sapnap was pretty much my brother.. but i also knew that he could possibly want something more from me
but i'm not going to stay silent anymore— i reached over and grabbed georges hand and gently squeezed it
" okay, let's all talk together as a group and clear up everything okay?
and when we do, i'll tell sapnap and everyone else what's going on"

a wave of relief felt like it was lifted from my shoulders as i said this
i knew how my fate would turn out in the end.. but i was more than prepared for it
even if it meant losing sapnap and everyone
" okay love" george smiled at me as he started the car once more
driving it back to our dorm—
where we were about to be greeted by some familiar faces standing in front of our dorms door

taking in a deep breath, and holding onto georges hand—
there's no turning back now

" sapnap, wilbur, karl, quackity, tommy and tubbo.. we need to talk"