The Scholarship || DREAMNOTFOUND

Chapter 14 (Sapnap & Dream) ✔︎

Sapnap

" i.. have broken heart syndrome—
and i don't know how long i have to live "

i took a few steps back as i saw my best friend clenching his chest on the floor of his living room with george hugging him
his words didn't faze me at first,
" pfft— yeah nice one dream!
once a jokester, always a jokester ha! "
i laughed at what he had said

everyone—
including my two boyfriends looked at me as they all seem to think he was being serious
wilbur walked over to george and dream and gave his brother a look, almost like they were talking without saying anything
it ended with george nodding at wilbur—
and wilbur looking back at me
" sapnap.. he's not kidding "

i balled my fists and laughed again as i felt the tears form in my eyes
" Yes he is!—
Dream!? tell them your kidding—
it's not funny anymore! "
i yelled as everyone looked down, dream stood up with wilbur— slowly walking over to me

" he's lying.. "
i remember thinking to myself as dream reached his hand out to me
" he's.. FUCKING LYING! "
without thinking— i slapped my best friends hand away as i felt warm tears blurring my sight—
i huffed and tried to breathe normally but i couldn't

" sapnap.. please i just— "

i turned my face away from him, my body began to move with speed as i ran out of that dorm room
not caring about anything anymore
i exited the building and felt the the london rain begin to soak into my hair.. and later my clothes
" no, no! i refuse to believe this is true!— "

" SAPNAP! WAIT!— "
his voice echoed within the cold weather as i tried desperately to run faster
i could hear him approaching me fast, i didn't want him to catch up to me—
because if he did.. than what he said before would be true
" LEAVE ME ALONE DREAM! "

꧁ ✔️ ꧂ at our parting (highly recommend to listen while reading)

i turned a corner, but slipped on the wet concrete
i felt a hand grab my white t-shirt to try to pull me back— but it was too late
we both began to fall down a small hill that led to a park
as we both stoped rolling, i tried to get up again
but was stopped when i was turned and pinned onto the wet grass as i could feel him climb onto me to prevent me from leaving
" GET OFF ME DREAM! LET ME— "

" NO I'M NOT LETTING YOU GO PLEASE DON'T GO "

" SO IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO GO AWAY BUT NOT ME?! "
i struggled to get free, i didn't want to face him
not now at least
my kicks and attempts of being let go went unsuccessful
after what felt like forever.. i let myself get tired, until i couldn't struggle anymore

the both of us huffed as we were out of breath from running
the cold damp rain coating the both of us.. yet i felt something warm dripping down my face
"tears?.. but are they mine? " i thought to myself, but no—
they weren't mine— they were his

" sapnap.. you think.. i want to leave? "
his voice was soft, sad, hurt
" i don't want to die "
his sloppy smile that attempted to hold back his sadness just made me cry even more—
i grabbed his wrists and pushed him onto his back.. pinning him down like he did me

" why did george know before me!—
why didn't you tell me when you were first taken to the hospital!—
i'm supposed to be your brother damn it!—
why did you wait to tell me! "
i gripped his wrists tighter as my tears mixed with the rain, after a few seconds my grip weakened and i laid my head onto his chest as i began to uncontrollably sob
" why.. was i the only one.. left behind "

as my trembling began to get violent, i felt two arms wrap around me and a hand slowly trailing up and down my back
what could i do in that moment?.. i just had to accept everything
his head was buried into the side of my body,
who was it that was trembling?—
was it me? or was it him?
no.. it was the both of us
as i listened closely, i could hear his small hics and sniffles

" i love you sapnap, you made me into the person that i am now and i know you will continue to guide me.. even after "

the rain began to slowly stop pouring, my gaze fixated at the small hint of light that shined above us
his words burning into the deepest parts of my mind
i didn't want to lose my best friend.. i didn't want to lose my brother— but what could i do

no more words were exchanged after he said that, instead,
i gently laid my ear against his chest— and just ever so faintly
i heard a sound that would forever replay in my mind until the day that i die

..badump

—

Dream

some stories have a happy ending—
some stories don't—
some have major plot twists—
some are predictable—

but how does my story end?
i truly don't know.. do you?—
i don't think so..

but as the four months go by in a flash— george, me, sapnap and everyone else would be graduating soon
i truly treasured every moment i had with them
but everything would change.. a week right before graduation

|| to be continued.. ||
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