✓ PLEASURABLE MESS

forty nine

I'm back, hoes. Currently writing this while I'm in class so there might be some errors that I didn't notice while I was writing!

"Listen Y/n, whatever happens you need to be strong." Jackson said and placed his hands on my shoulder

"He needs to live Jackson, I still need him" I say. Jackson lowered his eyes to the ground and sighed. I know that he's not sure if Hyunwoo's going to be okay

Judging from his condition as soon as he got into the ER it's a 50/50. He stood up and went to Namjoon

"Jackson you know Hyunwoo's not going to make it- well not unless a miracle happens and he somehow managed to escape death's door" Namjoon says

"I know, but I don't think Y/n can take the pain if Hyunwoo leaves her like that." He said and looked at Y/n who was very worried and anxious as to what the news the doctor might bring

"It might be dangerous for her situation especially since she's pregnant if she hears about the news the doctor might bring, may it be good or bad she can't-" Namjoon couldn't finish his sentence when the doctor finally went out of the ER

I immediately stood up and greeted the doctor. The doctor took a moment of silence before speaking. My heart was racing as I clasped my hands together, hoping.

"I'm sorry," My heart slowly sank. No, this can't be

"We did everything we could but it was too late. He lost a lot of blood. If he had gotten here early we could've had saved him but...I'm sorry for your loss"

I couldn't hear him, his voice was inaudible to my ears as I only stared at the door where my brother is in. He bowed at Jackson then left

The doctor's news left me fazed at my spot. I felt cold, empty, and the end of the rope of hope I was holding so tight hoping that my brother would be  alright, vanished into darkness.

It felt like my heart was sinking and that I had just lost a part of me, a part that I cherished so much that I couldn't possibly live without the existence of it.

My brother who gave me what my parents should've had given me, my brother who gave up his dreams just to raise me, my brother who chose to understand my stubbornness and still stayed with me.

He became a big part of me,

But I lost him.

"No..." I ran into the ER and the nurses tried to stop me but it was no use. I stopped at his bedside. He was resting, peacefully. Too peacefully.

Jackson signaled the nurses to leave the room and they obliged

"Hyunwoo, what about your chips?" Tears started to evade my eyes and my knees gave up on me. I supported myself by placing my hand at the side of his bed

"Please come back. I promise I won't complain about you eating all the chips in the refrigerator again just- please don't leave me like this.. come back Hyunwoo!" I broke down, burying my face in the sheets and held hyunwoo's hand as I weeped

His hands were cold but it still feels like home

I felt Jackson's hands gently placing on my shoulders. I turned to him "Jackson! There must be a mistake Hyunwoo isn't dead! He can still be alive.." I said and I knew it was ridiculous

"I'm sorry Y/n.." He said and avoided eye contact with me

At this time, only one person came to mind. The one who caused the death of my brother. Yuri, the two-faced traitorous snake!

I'm going to kill her

My emotions got the best of me it was like my rage was eating me up that I didn't care if I killed someone with my bare hands anymore. I felt numb and the only thing set to my mind was to eliminate the one who caused my pain.