✓ PLEASURABLE MESS

fifty

Something is warm. My hands were like wrapped with heat packs that warmed me. It feels very familiar.

My eyes slowly opened and I was greeted with a plain white ceiling and the familiar scent of the hospital greets my nose. The events started to flashback through my mind and I sprung up immediately

but hissed when I felt pain in my entire body. My hiss caused a person who I didn't know was there to wake up. Hyunjin's bloated face greets my eyes

The warmth I felt earlier was actually his hands that was holding mine tightly

I snapped out of it and focused on what mattered right now "T-The baby is the baby alright?" I asked hyunjin but he only stared at me

"Hey, I'm asking if-" my sentence got cut off when Hyunjin hugged me. His hands were wrapped around my back as he buried his face on my tummy, he was sitting that's why that is how he hugged me (I don't know ??)

"I'm sorry" His voice was muffled but I could still understand it. "I'm sorry it took me so long to go back to you- I'm really sorry" He cried into my arms

He's asking for forgiveness yet the flashbacks from when he was with Hana and when he shouted at me, telling me to go away and leave them alone as if I was nothing to him

What am I to him? Maybe I am nothing to him.

"Are you aware of the amount of pain i've felt when you've pushed me away as if we never knew each other?" I say which made him look up at me

"Y/n I couldn't remember. They did something to me, manipulated me into thinking that I was in the right track. I had no clue" His eyes pleading me to forgive him

"He's telling the truth, this is the drug they tricked him into taking" Felix's voice erupted at the door and he was already standing there with a black coat over his shoulder while he held it using only his left hand and index finger

He waved the drug and smiled "Although Hyunjin could've approached you sooner as soon as he remembered you but he put 'taking down Hana's business' first over 'Letting his girl who he had said hurtful words to know his situation, offer her flowers and giving her the best night - specifically in bed'."

"I couldn't. My memories were going back to me very slowly so I couldn't-" felix cut hyunjin's explanation and sat at y/n's bedside, lifting his leg to rest on the other

"Doesn't it hurt Y/n that he put Hana first over you?" He dramatically said and looked at me with a smirk plastered on his beautiful face "Go back to me and I'll assure you that I'm going to be a better man than hyunnie over here"

Hyunjin was now with furrowed eyebrows and had already crossed his arms at Felix "Why are you even here?" He asked, irritated of seeing Felix's face again

"I will be away for a while, maybe for a year. I'm going to go at another country so I'm here to bid my goodbyes to my 'was about to be my wife' and to my 'beloved bestie'" his eyes sparkled at Hyunjin

Hyunjin only gave him a disgusted face "I'm glad to hear that. I'm praying that you'll never come back here again" He says and Felix laughed at his nonsense

"Anyways! Y/n your baby is okay, I've talked with the doctor. It wasn't that serious since you're still a month pregnant. Fulfill my one last wish.." His face went closer to mine