𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 ~ 𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦

𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 & 𝕒𝕝𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤

i lay in bed staring blankly at the ceiling. my heart is dry, but my head runs wild. visions of cool silver flood my mind, and glimpses of peace make my dry heart skip a faint beat. a tear rolls down my cheek as the overwhelming moment of loneliness drags on for eternity. i no longer felt myself; wandering along a path of isolation. this was until you got in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling by my side. my shaky breaths filled the silent space between us.

"don't cry."

it was a command, given through a strained voice.

i sniffle and draw in and let out a ragged breath. the tears pooling along the seam of my eyes stilled in my best attempt, but the action was not held long enough. another ragged breath out and i felt another hot tear run out the corner of my eye. the feeling was halted by the hand on my cheek catching the tear - prohibiting it from falling any further. you squeeze your eyes shut and your jaw clenches. i could feel the tension in your hands. you hated seeing me like this. but your fingers then intertwine with mine as you brush hair off my forehead. you guide your palm down my lower back and trail your fingertips along the curve of my spine. you calm me, peppering kisses all over my face and tears. you hold my sobbing figure at night, and look at me like if your gaze shall ever trail i would disappear.

"i love you."

you speak softly in a hushed tone.

"it's the way you laugh so hard that you squint your eyes. and sometimes, you even cry and when you cry in fits of pain i promise to always be there like now, whispering your name. and when your name leaves my mouth, it's always good things that come out."

i look at you and my tears subside as i see your eyes closed and your hand firmly holding mine.

"and i know you don't love yourself the way i do. but i'll always be there for you, because i'm in love with you."

the last sentence escapes your lips and drifts off into the wind. the sky shines blue hues and the clouds clear for an ounce of bliss to appear. you make me feel safe, it wasn't often a human being could do that. but at this very moment, the world, the pain, it all paused.

and for a brief moment, the only thing consuming my mind was the undying thought that i was truly loved by someone who made my life worth living.