DreamSMP Oneshots (DISCONTINUED)

Scars -Wilbur Soot fluff/angst-

A/N:

WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM

I'm basing some of the angst in this off my own personal experiences with depression and anxiety, things I still suffer from. So please if this really bothers you, don't read

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Y/N's POV
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Why did I have to feel so alone? So sad all the time even when surrounded by people that loved and cared for me? I couldn't understand it, it frustrates me to the point where I'd breakdown thinking about it all. I always feel like I'm the meanest person ever even though people say other wise, always feel like I'm some disgusting monster but people would still say other wise.. And I couldn't believe them, even if I tried

But then.. I met Wilbur, the man with the beautiful voice and a guitar he played so well. He made me feel things I never thought I could feel.. Like happiness. Every time I saw him, my heart fluttered and every time I heard his voice, my stomach filled with butterflies

I couldn't deny that I was in love with him but.. I knew he'd never feel the same. Being rejected and used over and over again, brought me to believe that I was worthless, useless.. A nobody. I turned to self harm, wanting my emotional pain to go away, so I used physical pain. Scars on my wrists, covered up with sweaters

Tears stained my cheeks every night but when Wilbur caught me hurting myself.. I fell apart

"Y/N.. What are you doing to yourself?" Tears filled my eyes, falling from my sleepless eyes and all I could muster out was "I'm sorry" I could see his heart break, his eyes fill with worry as he came over to me and grabbed my hands "W-Will please not now, I can't.." He presses his forehead against mine "Beautiful" I looked at him in surprise "What?" He holds up my scarred wrist "These are beautiful, everything about you is beautiful in my eyes" My heart ached, more tears falling and I look down "Why aren't you mad?" He looks at me, confusion written on his face "Why would I ever be mad?"

I didn't deserve him, I didn't deserve anything I have. Self harm was all I had, when nothing else could take away my pain, that did, it helped me forget, maybe for a short time but it did.
Wilbur looks at me with pleading eyes "Please Y/N.. Never again. Don't scar your beautiful body. I want to see you again, I want to hold you again.. I can't lose you" He gently lifts up my chin, his lips connecting with mine. It was almost magical, like we were the only humans on earth. I could feel his thumbs gently caress my scars and I knew from then on that I wasn't alone anymore

I pull away from him "Will.. Can you sing for me?" He smiles "I thought you'd never ask" He gets up and walks out of the room, I look down at my wrists, the scars I promised I'd never leave on my body again.. 'But what if I gets too difficult? What if Will leaves you like everyone else?' I shake my head of the thoughts 'He won't, Will isn't like that'

He comes back with his guitar, sitting on the edge of the bed. "Ready?" He asks with a gentle smile and I nod. He begins playing, strumming his guitar with his delicate fingers. Singing to me softly, his voice ringing in my ears

I knew I loved this man.. And I knew that he loved me too and I knew that he was always gonna be there for me.. No matter what

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This one was really short, but I just wanted to get this posted before I forgot

This oneshot is based mostly off my own hardships, dealing with depression and anxiety along with self harm.. I even almost cried making this

Knowing that I can write this, makes me comfortable with you guys. Knowing that you all won't treat me any differently than your friend/author

But please.. Whatever you're going through, know that you're not alone. Self harm isn't the answer, I know from experience, whatever flaws, whatever scars you have on your body.. You're beautiful in my eyes

Please if you are experiencing any kind of bad thoughts (suicide, self harm etc..) Contact someone, don't let it bottle up. Call someone or text someone you trust but please don't let your thoughts devour you.

Be you, be beautiful in your own ways

I love you guys a lot, stay safe <3

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Mel :)