trigger warnings: excessive cursing, dissociation, families, intrusive thoughts, compulsive reading, pro-ship/rainbow meat (specifically !nc3st)
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warm like a blanket/hot like an oven
everything's fuzzy/my eyesight's a wreck
if I take off my glasses/will it be clear instead?
elongated muskrat/fuck you and your cars
play it on repeat and process none of it at all
grounding techniques fade to background noise
this smell this taste this emotion this thing
nothing's getting done/my head is full and empty
songs all over each other/images are fucked-up
bye-bye filter/better run motherfucker
mom better not come up here/dad stop calling my phone
fuck you I don't know you my head is spinning
too hot to keep it on/like hell I'll take it off
ambiguous incest is still fucking incest
can't turn off my brain/feel like I'm insane
keep reading things I hate/things that make me want to die
things that make me want to cry
who am I kidding/I always want to cry
I loved you, I loved you/the image won't go away
tag your fucking rainbow meat you're killing me inside
so I have OCD and I can't put it to words
need to read it need to find it need to make my brain my curse
when I say to fucking change the topic, fucking change the topic
you're only making it worse/my head hurts
"they're just characters" "they don't feel it"
but I fucking feel it, *I read me fucking my brother,* stop making fucking excuses
I can't not read it/need to know what happens
my brain's fucked up and you make it worse
can't distinguish thoughts from what I read
need to purge the images/but nothing will work
shut the fuck up about "kinks" and "sexual expression"
you're immoral and you're hurting us so much
go on tangents and pull back
fuck that, not pulling back
your readers are people too, so for the last fucking time
if it's your coping skill that doesn't mean it's mine
— Jay & Unknown.
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our views on pro-ship content have changed to some extent so please do not take this as representative of our opinion on pro-shippers.
Jay is an introject.
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