Fate

8.

Nicole

I was watching the TV exhausted at home. For some reason I still felt I was somehow sick but I just decided to ignore it. I had a long day of work so I was really tired laying in the couch.

I opened up Instagram and saw a post from Justin. He dropped a new song so I decided to listen to it.

After listening to Justin's song I felt it quite personal and some tears rolled down my cheeks, there's no way it's about me though, it should be about another girl he's seeing or something. Somehow, being his only serious ex girlfriend made me doubt about that. But it was definitely not about me.

I changed the channel to CBS and The Ellen Show was streaming and guess who was the guest? Yes mr ex boyfriend was being interviewed by Ellen. "It's umm... it's about my ex girlfriend." So yeah, it was about me. Couldn't he just text me and say "hey I'm sorry"... i mean it's not that difficult.

I got up and turned off the tv. I didn't really wanted to watch him. I went to my room and got into the shower, I wanted to cleanse myself and feel clean and fresh after feeling so sick for so much time.

I got out of the water and pulled my hair up on the towel. I logged into Instagram as I brushed my teeth and the first thing that popped up. An article about Justin performing his song called "Justin Bieber apologized publicly to Nicole Reynolds."

I clicked on the video and as I watched it my only though was how people can grab anything you do and turn it into a rumor. It's so exhausting having to live your life and everyone having an opinion at what you do or don't do.

I clicked off the video as i received a message from my mom. Me and my mom had an amazing relationship. We got along so well and we would always meet to catch up.

MESSAGES
mom

hey darling!
how are you doing?

hey mom❤️
I'm doing great
wbu

we're good here too!
when can we go grab lunch
i miss you!

maybe you can come visit today?

i will!
i can cook something

yessss!!!

what does my princess want?

spaghetti!

okay!!
your daddy misses you too
but i told him it's a girls night

awwwe tell him I miss him too

Nicole

"So I wrote this." I handed some papers with song lyrics to my mom. Yes I wrote some songs but I never showed them to anyone, not even my friends, only my mom was the one that listened to them. "And who's the melody? Sing it." She said while reading the lyrics.

He said the way my blue eyes shined
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said, "That's a lie"
Just a boy in a Chevy truck
That had a tendency of gettin' stuck
On backroads at night
And I was right there beside him all summer long
And then the time we woke up to find that summer gone

But when you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me

September saw a month of tears
And thanking God that you weren't here
To see me like that
But in a box beneath my bed
Is a letter that you never read
From three summers back
It's hard not to find it all a little bittersweet
And lookin' back on all of that, it's nice to believe

When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me

And I'm back for the first time since then
I'm standing on your street
And there's a letter left on your doorstep
And the first thing that you'll read
Is when you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think my favorite song
Someday you'll turn your radio on
I hope it takes you back to that place
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me
Oh, think of me
Mmm

He said the way my blue eyes shined
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said, "That's a lie"

"I love this!" My mom said. The cool thing about my mom is that she was like a best friend to me. She was not like those moms that only fight with you, she was actually caring and cared about having a friendship with me, that's why we got along so well.

"Thank you mom" I said and I grabbed the lyrics and put them back in their place. "Is it about someone?" My mom said intrigued. "Justin." I said letting out a sight. I didn't like to be vulnerable about that stuff but here I was exposing myself.

"Oh darling... it's fine you know. It's fine to feel that way about ex lovers. But how are you feeling about that guy?" She said hugging me as I cuddled to her side. "I don't really know mom. I thought I had already moved on but now he's making songs about me and trying to apologize and I don't know how I feel about it." I explained to my mom looking up to look at her.

"Well honey does it still hurt?" She asked. "No definitely it doesn't." I replied almost instantly. "Do you still love him?" She asked with a sincere look in her blue eyes. "I think I always will." I said being honest with my mom.

"He was your first love... it's totally okay." She explained. "I know..." I said as I cuddled to her side again.