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i'm anything but trusting
can't help but feel disgusting
my heart is on the table
and my head is still discussing
the conditions of my exit
i still don't know what's next yet
do i rip my chest wide open
or do i try to heal my mindset?
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i don't like to get too close
that's the thing i hate the most
when they reach so far to listen
just to see that i'm a ghost
i regret the things i say
they're not worth the aching pain
sabotage all my connections
so they can't feel my burning shame
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ripping my tongue through my cheek
just to taste blood on my teeth
hate spending time by the water
but i'm there most every week
i try to neglect the murmers
though they're only getting sterner
ignore the breathlessness i feel
when all they ask of me is murder
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