"You look so happy without me.
Maybe I'm not really meant for you."
I WOKE up and opened my eyes. I stared at the ceiling until I remember everything happened last night.
What the hell?!
Napabalikwas ako saka hinanap ang phone ko. No... nangyari ba 'yon? No! Hindi maaari. Nakakahiya. I am not that kind of person. Hindi ako ang klase ng tao na maghahabol o magpapaka martyr sa isang lalaki. I know myself better than anyone.
I dialled Devan's number. I need to ask him about last night dahil hindi ako matatahimik nito.
"Hey... fuck, it's too early. Why did you call?"
Parang inaantok pa ang boses niya. Huminga ako ng malalim. "What happened last night?"
"Last night?"
"Oo, sa hashtag bar. What happened? I mean, what exactly happened?"
Tumahimik siya saglit.
"Devan asnwer me."
"Wait, you mean what happened like you got wasted?"
"Oo! Ano pa. Ano pang nangyari?"
"Nothing special? I mean, nakita natin si Aries and you didn't fucking stop drinking. I can't even stop you. Hindi ko maagaw ang mga bote ng alak sa 'yo. I told you to stop pero makulit ka. You cursed like hell. You kept on cussing with my cousin's name. You just kept on drunking until you get wasted and ended up..."
Kinabahan ako. Ang dibdib ko...
"Ended up ano?"
Na pumunta ako kay Aries at sinabing gusto ko siya?! Jusko, kainin nalang sana ako ng lupa! Never in my entire life na maiisip ko 'yon!
"Hanggang nakatulog ka. Bagsak, Cassidy. Fuck, I don't even know your unit's passcode so I asked Aries baka alam niya and yeah, he told me your passcode so I brought you home."
Again, tama ba ang narinig ko?
"Wala na?"
"What do you mean?"
"May nagawa ba akong nakakahiya kagabi? Nilapitan ko ba si Aries or what?"
"Nah. Siya ang lumapit sa 'yo sa table natin. He also tried to stop you from drinking pero matigas nga ang ulo mo hanggang bumagsak ka. That's why I asked him for your unit's passcode. Because he was at our table."
Kumabog ang puso ko. Hindi ko maalala iyon. Wala akong maalala na lumapit siya.
"Seryoso ka ba d'yan, Devan."
"Ah, you want to meet? I have your video taken by Ludwig. You're savage last night."
"Savage, bakit?"
He chuckles. "Let's just meet and watch the damn video."
Lumuwag ang dibdib ko nang malamang hindi naman pala totoong nangyari iyong lumapit ako kay Aries at ipinagsigawang guato ko siya pero parang kinabahan na naman ako sa sinasabing video ni Devan.
"Okay, okay."
"Let's meet at Cade de Lucio. You can find it on waze."
I took a deep breath. "Fine. Give me an hour to prepare."
"Alright."
"Bye."
I ended the call. Punyeta, anong video naman kaya ang sinasabi ni Devan? Sa halip na wala na akong iniisip dahil hindi naman pala totoong nangyari iyong naisip ko. Panaginip lang siguro dahil sa sobrang pag-iisip ko kay Aries? Tapos hindinko la maalala 'yong totoong nangyari na siya pala ang lumapit sa akin.
