Through Sunsets and Midnights

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3 weeks,

An estimated amount of time for one to break a habit,

Without a scientific reason if it really works since it is just based off an internet search,

Someone does when they are that desperate to know something they want but can't do.

Chaewon never relied on anything that she would read off the internet until now,

Yet it took her less than a minute to get that estimated answer not even caring if it's even legit or not,

Since her crippled heart needed something just like it for her to still hold on to her wish,

Of getting to know how could she ever forget her again now that the moment they have met again,

Seemed to have left such a deeper mark than the one that was left years ago.

She has never been this deceiving to herself until now and she has already caught herself forming and searching for so many other habits,

Just to keep her mind off Minju,

Yet she keeps finding herself staring at her number for an uncountable amount of time already.

She's on her way right now to go out on the 21st day since they last met to meet with some friends,

To hopefully get some peace for her own mind and sacrifice herself as the third wheel on their dates,

Except Yena since they'll be alone for the night after she decided to treat her 'alter ego'

After missing out a little bit too much from her personal life after being busy on her own for the past week.

She's been getting updates from Chaeyeon and Eunbi unnie but nonetheless,

She wants to be the one who's going to take care of Chaewon on her own for tonight,

To make sure that she'll eat a full meal and hopefully see her smile at least once.

Taking her house keys off the hook behind her door,

She's guilty of adding something new hanging on her keys that she has always cherished,

To the point that she kept it somewhere safe where it wouldn't get dirty nor worn out due to time,

She always kept it in places where she would easily know where it is or what is its condition throughout her life,

Yet now,

She can relatively compare it to something that she has also kept close to her throughout the years,

And its soon disappearance will disappoint her so much more than how she's disappointed in herself.

She should've knew through her hair tie that keeping something so far away from its purpose,

Would eventually end up with her feeling like this.

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First stop is at the rooftop of a well-known mall,

Chaewon didn't take her bike nor her car with her and she's not surprised that the guards just let her go up here,

The main objective of their job is indeed to serve and protect those they are around of,

And she even appreciates how one of the guards by the exit earlier smiled at her,

She didn't have the energy to smile back but she hopes that he understood that,