¤ Ethereal ¤ Im Changkyun X Reader ON HIATUS (Soulmate Fanfiction)

Sheild ~ Ch25

Warnings : Mentions of suicide, depictions of self-harm

¤ (Y/n)'s Point Of View ¤

After grabbing my hand, I.M gently placed a hand on my lower back and pulled me along with him to the changing rooms. The boy went into the boy's locker rooms while I went into the girls'. We both got changed into our casual clothes and grabbed our stuff before meeting eachother back in the hallway. He got there before me, leaning against the wall with his backpack loosely hanging over his shoulder.

When the boy noticed me, he nudged his head to the side motioning for us to head out. I could only follow him in silence as he lead me to the back gate, helping me over the fence before swingimg himself over it. It was only when he winced as he dropped onto the ground on his feet that I remembered that under that she he still had multiple wounds and stitches. Yet he was still suffering like this for me.

As he led me down the road towards our ledge, I couldn't help but feel abit annoyed towards I.M. After all, he had been ignoring me for the past 3 days yet was now walking me down the road like nothing ever happened at all.
"Weren't you ignoring me? Why did you help me today?" I couldn't help but ask, breaking the tension with the questions I've been wanting to ask since he helped me.

"Because you needed it...and I wasn't ignorning you." I.M told me with a small sigh, looking down at his feet in slight shame as he continued to walk.
"Well, good. Because if you were then that would have pissed me off. It's not a very good thank you for saving your life." I joked, trying to lighten the mood while pushing down my frustration. It was clear he felt guilty for the secrets and that was good enough for me.

I.M let out a small chuckle at my joke, amusement taking over his features as he thought of a reply.
"Thank you." I.M said with a small smile, giving me a side eye that showed that he really was sincerely grateful.
"Thank you aswell...for your help today." I told him thankfully, mirroring his smile as I replied. Only God knows what would have happened if he hadn't intervened.

"I thought you didn't need it?" The noirette teased, snickering at he watched me lose my composure.
"S-Shut up." I stuttered out, my cheeks flaring red as I recalled on telling him that I did not in fact need his help out of stubborness. The boy chuckled at my embarrassment, then allowed us both to fall in a now comfortable silence as we reached our usual ledge.

We both hopped on, staring straight ahead at the blaring sun. It was midday, the sun being high and bright in the sky. But I was glad we could both appreciate the view in a comfortable silnce rather than an awkward one. I hated having tension between us because he was the one person that I honestly didn't want to get into an argument with. I wondered if he felt the same.

As we sat in silence for a little longer, my legs beginning to sway forwards in anticipation. Even though we were both comfortable in this 'no talking zone' we were in, it was obvious that something had to be mentioned. I knew he wanted to ask- hell, I would have asked too if the situation was reversed. But for some reason, he couldn't bring himself to do it. After all, asking someone what it was they were hiding behind their choker wasn't something that could be brought up out of the blue.

"Are you not gonna ask?" I asked him quietly, speaking loud enough for him to hear me but low enough to show how little confidence I had in this conversation. I didn't look over at him but I knew that he didn't look confused or suprised at my question- him knowing just exactly what I meant without having to specify it at all.

"Would you answer?" The boy asked back, his voice as quiet as mine but yet held so much more confidence than me.
I couldn't answer his question as quick as I would have liked, him making a fair point. Would I answer? This is something that I haven't really even talked to Hyungwon about. My brother had to hear it all from social services instead.