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If you were to fill out a survey about your self what would you say?

would you spend hours on writing what they want, 

making it sound beautiful,  perfect.. or would you

 just tell them the truth...from how you see it... your truth... 

I know what I would write... but as usual it doesn't matter...

 not on these pages of hard work, ironed out hours..

 the truest waste of time that I have ever done in my life..

 instead of getting what I need I sit here quietly raging behind a screen,

 cry wishing for change...

 it's so stupid.. 

just like me.. you .. everything to be honest...  mostly me..

... 

...

No, I don't feel like this right now...

  F -

-phenomenon..

God, I can't even stay on script.. 

but of course, I lost that a long time ago.

I'll never be the same again.. 

after all these useless words.. 

Endlessly calling for some type of hope...

it doesn't matter, I've lost every chance that I could have ever had.. 

I'll never get my dreams there

 all dead.. and even if they weren't.. 

it's not like if I even got them that wouldn't do what I need it to do...

change the world... 

that's stupid.. 

that's a child's dream... 

You're not a child anymore.. that part of me died... a long time ago..

God, I just want to matter.. 

I want a day, with the people that pretend to care about me.. 

just a thousand hours, to just waste away time.. 

and pretend forever.. 

so I didn't feel useless at night

 like these... so I don't have to feel like this every day, everywhere..

 I just want so much more and I'll never get it c-

...

..I think I just need a hug..

- The Golden Child