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Feelings

It's been 3 weeks since Nagito and I had officially became actual friends and things were going smoothly. We mainly be hanging out at Chiaki's house playing video games, which i never win by the way. Nagito still picks on me from time to time but nothing I can't handle, because I do the literal same thing. Things are great tho! but there is one thing, whenever i'm around Nagito i'm always feeling nervous or anxious.

"Earth to Hajimeeee" I look up to the calling of my name, immediately getting out of my thoughts.

"Oh i'm sorry Nagito, what was you saying again?"

Me and Nagito are at our favorite library right now, we are supposed to be studying but i zoned out again. Nagito's huffs and crosses his left leg over the other, while maintaining eye contact with me.

I feel my face heat up from the intense stare and look back down. "What is up with you lately?" Nagito ask. I pick my head back up and look at him confusingly, what does he mean? "What you mean?"

"I mean you always be stuck inside your own head." he's right, but i can't tell him that because the reason i'm stuck in my head is because my thoughts are full of him. why? who knows.

"To be honest with you, i'm not in the mood to be studying at the moment. How about we go do something fun?" Nagito keeps a straight face until a small smile appears on his face. "Yeah sure, let's go then."

We pick up our things and started heading out the library. "So where you wanna go?" Nagito asks with a smile and sweat starting to appear on his head. Winter just ended a couple weeks ago so its been getting really hot lately, speaking of being hot. "How about the beach?" I ask looking at Nagito with a smirk. Nagito nods enthusiastically and smiles as me and him continue our walk to the beach.

Nagito and I finally made it to the beach, surprisingly there was nobody there, like at all. "It's completely deserted." Nagito says.

I nod my head agreeing with him. "Well at least we got it all to ourselves!" I say while starting to take off my shoes and roll up my jeans. Nagito lifts his eyebrow, looking at me confusingly. "Are you bout to actually get in the water?" I look at him dumbfounded, well it's not unlike him to ask dumbass questions.

I shrug "I mean yeah, it's hot and we're alone. Might as well enjoy ourselves." I say as I step into the water.

As I walk deeper and deeper into the water, I can feel Nagito's gaze on me the entire time. I look back at him and yell out to him. "Like what you see?!" after saying those words Nagito just rolls his eyes. I laugh and then start heading towards him. "Join me." I say as I come face to face with him. He was quick to shake his head 'no' but i kept insisting and he finally gave in. "okay fine."

Nagito begins taking off his shoes and socks while rolling up his jeans just as i did and stepped into the water beside me. I smile and then start walking deeper into the water again with Nagito walking slowly next to me. At first I was afraid that i pressured him into coming in too much but then he started to relax which calmed my almost anxiety attack.

Me and Nagito just stood there with half our bodies in the water, I turn to look at him. I stood in awe, I always knew Nagito was attractive but he just looked so hypnotizing right now.

His hair was slightly wet as the wind blew against it, blowing it out of his face which was hiding him smiling. "Hey Nagito..." Nagito turns his attention towards me, "Yeah?" I put my head down as a I reach my hand towards his and holds his fingers. Nagito jumped but immediately relaxed.

I look back up causing me to make eye contact with him. His eyes were widen and he had a small blush on his face. He looks so appealing, all flustered and conflicted, I wanna see this side of him more. I move my hand from holding his fingers to connecting our hands together. I can see him turning redder with every little movement i make.

"W-what are you doing..?" Nagito finally muster up the courage to say. I look at him and then suddenly hug him. I can feel his heart beat rising as I lay my head on his chest. As much as i'm enjoying this, it must come to a end. I sigh and then right when he didn't expect it I threw us both under the water.

As me and him come out from under the water, I can hear Nagito coughing as he starts heading out the water. "You dick! What was the reason for that?" he says obviously agitated. I start laughing as I get out the water as well and lay myself down in the sand looking up at Nagito, who was still standing, looking at me with a glare.

I sigh feeling a little bad, i honestly don't know why i did it, how about we just call it.. um.. instinct. "I'm sorry." I say as I stand up and face him.

Nagito huffs and turns his head, taking his gaze off of mine. "Come on, don't be like that. I really am sorry." Nagito sighs and looks back at me, looking much calmer now. "You're a ass y'know that right?" he says. I snicker and nod, "Look who's talking tho." Nagito laughs and I couldn't help but laugh with him.

I love these moments we have, just plain laughter together. We both started to calm down and begin to stop laughing. I couldn't help but place my gaze on Nagito, we looked at each other, maintaining intense eye contact. I can feel my stomach starting to turn, I was beginning to feel anxious again.

What has been this feeling that i've been having in my chest lately. I can't explain it, but... it feels so good. I lift my hand up and grab the right side of Nagito's face. He didn't flinch or say anything as I did that. He just looked at me as I kept staring at him. I couldn't help staring, he was so enticing to look at.

"You're so beautiful." I say without thinking. I watch as Nagito's eyes widen and face turns a bright red. I can also feel my face beginning to heat up. I move my face closer to his and I can see him moving closer as well. Our lips were only inches apart, my heart was skyrocketing more than ever.

But suddenly I stopped moving, and begin to overthink. Will he think i'm disgusting? Will he start to bully me again? And worst of all, will he hate me? I begin to move away but right when I was about to remove my hand off his face, Nagito grabbed the back of my head and pulled me into a embrace, finally connecting our lips.

I fell into it quickly, i've been wanting this for such a long time. So my assumptions were correct, I really do have feelings for Nagito.