Despite fame and success, Louella Starling is in deep melancholy for she believes that she's an impostor. One day she discovered that there's a mystical bird called Alpas that gives miracles and extraordinary courage to break free. Louella recruits...
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Only with a calm mind, you can clearly think. But more so, calm your heart to win the fight.
/14/ Together Forever?
[LOUELLA]
I never imagined that I'll feel this way. Every fiber of my being is filled with fear. I'm too terrified to think.
Kung hindi pa ako tapikin ni Lysander, hindi ko malalaman na kami na lang pala ang natitirang pasahero sa loob ng eroplano. The flight attendant was about to approach us when my companion grabbed my hand and pulled me to stand up.
Kaunti lang ang tao sa airport dahil malalim na ang gabi, the silence didn't help because it feels like I can hear my heartbeat.
Maaga akong matutuluyan nito.
Parang may kidlat na tumama sa'kin nang mapagtanto na sa umpisa palang ay delikado na pala ang ginawa namin—going to an unfamiliar place, we've been warned not to go and yet we continued.
You are so fucking stupid, Louella.
Lysander stopped walking but he didn't let go of my hand. Tiningnan niya 'ko at nakita ang luhaan kong mukha.
Without saying a word, he took out a handkerchief. Nang titigan ko lang ang hawak niya'y marahan niya 'yong dinampi sa pisngi ko.
"Crying won't help, you know," mahina niyang sabi.
Umiling ako. "Too bad, I won't stop crying."
Napabuntong-hininga si Lysander. "We should go home and rest. Then we'll think about what to do. We're tired."
Umiling ulit ako kasabay nang sunod-sunod na pagpatak ng luha. "Paano ko magagawang makapagpahinga o makatulog sa nangyari? It's all my fault. Because me . . . Raven's in grave danger and Ellon! Ellon . . . H-he died because of me."
His lifeless eyes just stared at me. H-how could he?
"Blaming yourself won't change a thing. Yes, it's all your fault. Pero sa tingin mo ba makakatulong 'yon sa sitwasyon? Mababalik ba ang buhay ni Ellon?" The way he said it without stuttering feels like stabbing me in the chest.
"B-bakit ka ganyan? W-why are you so cold?!"
"Cold?" ulit niya. "Because I need to control myself, unlike you, who puts us in this mess because you're so obsessed with finding that stupid bird, and now, you're acting like an idiot." It's painful. I know I deserve those words.
Binitawan na niya 'yung kamay ko't tumalikod. Alam kong iiwanan na niya 'ko kaya napasalampak na lang ako sa sahig.
"I wish... I'm the one who died back there," I whispered.
