Hated

While we breakfast none of us is talking. We just eat and look a few times at each other. I thought I'm the the only one who is shy, but Levi also can't be confident all the time. Everytime when I try to make eyecontact with him, he looks to the side with this slightly red cheeks.

Maybe this is too much for him?
...Impossible. I mean... we gave each other a hand job...and a blow job..

But still... the silence between us is embarrassing.

I'll try to break the silence!

" Thanks for the food..darling, it's really delicious"

" Uhm.. no problem ... and never call me darling again!"

" But why..." I pout.

" Just to say you one thing... you are the uke in this relationship, yeah?"

UKE? ME?

" E-Ehhh?! No, I'm not!" I say while blushing harder and harder.

" No no no, you are!" He puts his
chopsticks to the side and points at me with his finger.
" I can't deal with it to be the bottom" he crosses his arms.

" S-Seriously?? B-But.... Someday I want it to be the top'!"

" You really talk much shit for a brat like you... You can be happy that I decided to be your Boyfriend.. Tch."

.... I cross my arms too, looking to the side offended.

" I never forced you to be my boyfriend!... But if you don't want to be a couple with me.. I will...-. "

He stands up a bit angry. I bet he will finish this now ....

" You idiot, you talk shit again! "
He says and sits slowly on my lap hugging me suddenly.

I flinch suprised and my cheeks are still reddish.

" E-Ehh?-."

" Shut up.." He hugs me even tighter.

I nod and wrap my arms around his hips to push him against me.

" Levi... I love you" I close my eyes and hide my blushing face in his neck.

" Then never say something like: 'If you don't want to be my boyfriend' again... I love you too... and I'll be with you.."
He says closing his eyes and muttered a quiet "forever" under his breath.

His warmth... nothing else on this world can replace the warmth of his body. My heart beats like crazy and my stomach tickles.. I think this is love. After all these years I never knew what love was, but Levi showed me what a beautifull feeling it is.

I want to feel this forever with him.

" you're so adorable " I say smiling and open my eyes slowly.

" H-huh?"
he blushes again looking in my eyes.

" Nothing"

I close the distance between our lips with a soft kiss.

Levi widens his eyes blushing befor he kisses me back.
" Mmmh~"

The way he pushes his soft lips against mine turns me on... but I don't want that this one kiss turn into sex... no.. not yet and not here.

" AhMmh-mh L-Levi~"
I moan his name slowly into the kiss and stroke the back of his head.

I see him smirking and how he tries to put his tongue in my mouth.

I blush harder and hesitate.

Should I.... or not?

Befor I could think more about it, he already slided his tongue in and wraps it around my tongue. We play a bit befor changing our salivas.

" Mmaah~"

He finishes the wet kiss after two minutes and stroke my cheek.

" My cutie..."

" You're cuter than me " I say smiling happy and look at the clock.

Shit... I have to go home ... I'm still scared that my parents could find out that I slept here.

" Levi I have to.-"

" ..go. Yes, I know"

" I'm really sorry. I want to stay here, but... it isn't possible"

" Eren. You told me everything and I decided to help you. You can't stay there anymore, it's enough. Let us go together to the police."

My heart beats faster... but not because of Levi.. because I'm scared. Scared as fuck.

He notices it and holds my hand.

" We mustn't do it now, but someday we will do it, yes?"

I nod and swallow.

" Y-yes.... thank you so much"

" You don't have to thank me "
He smiles and gives me my phone.
" You have my number now! Now we can chat and send us photos. And you can call me.. whenever you want"

" Ohhh thank you!!"
I kiss his cheek, happy to have his number.

" I'll call you for sure! And chat with you!"

He giggles and stands slowly up.

I stand up too and walk to the door.

" Thank you for everything, Levi. You make me happy as possible"

" And you make me happy "

" I'll send you a message when I'm home, yes?"

" Yes.. I will wait"

I kiss him short and walk slowly out.

" See you tomorrow at school"

" Yeah, bye"

I wave and walk home. It sucks that I can't be with Levi...

Walking through the streets I can see 'our' house.
My window is still open!

"Thank you god"

I climb on a trash and climb slowly in my room.

" U-Urgh..." I pull myself high and fall in my room.
"yuush"

Standing up my heart stops and I have the feel to faint.

-----------after 30 mins---------

---- Levis perspective------

" He said he would message me when he's home....
Maybe, I should call him...."