This isn't what I planned to be in

It's about time I get stronger then before

Mike POV

While we were waiting, I felt good... fine... at ease... we were getting to rest up even when we're making a ruckus inside the Humvee. This vehicle was soundproof as we were resting in here something- 

The Sound..

It ringed in my ears as it was close, I quickly take out my mask as the black ooze came out and it was rapid. Like that I quirkily made my way to the hatch as I quickly got out. I felt hands all over my body trying to stop me, but... 

I should've known!.. I SHOULD'VE FUCKING KNOWN!

God fucking damn it! these are the times even in Fics, Movies, or shows where... someone going to die... a flashback or... another day of survival... I... GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!  

Even if I stayed with them Saya's mother and those firemen would see me as a possible threat and infected. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! 

...Once I got out carefully I along with down as I see the horde in front of me. As then I felt something hard! it made my body turned around and I see Saya and-

Slap! 

Saya(whisper): "IDIOT! what are you doing!? get-"

Mikey(whisper): "I CAN'T! LOOK AT ME SAYA! I'm turning and- I can't let you or anyone in danger! including someone like you Saya! you're my best friend who I made over these years! besides your almost there!" I yelled whispered at Saya.  

Saya(whisper): "Stupid! we can.. we can.. leave you outside! you see if you stay quiet then there's no problem." She said as she explains to me about a plan. 

Mikey(whisper): "There is! my black ooze! we can't hide that. Please! understand go back to the Humvee! please."

I felt heavy... I now really now feel those times in the Walking Dead... I don't care about those people who talked shit about it. It gave a real example of how we as humans would do or not betray, trust, or such. I now know what it felt... what it really felt when we the viewers learned about Carl's bite. It was so sad even when Rico pulled the trigger to end his only last family left in this world...

Saya(whisper): "No! I'm not leaving you! I won't! you have been going out your wat doing these crazy stunts and I'm sick of it!" She said as I could see she didn't want to leave me. 

I gave a sad look as I can still hear the buzzing sound in my head, but even still... I wanted to talk... I felt like I was getting used to it. 

Mikey(whisper): "Please Saya...  go home... you need to go home... your mom and dad are waiting for you there. Please... (mind) Shit... do I even need to explain... even I... even I begin to cry."

I can see Saya clutching her fists and crying... I know that this is- 

No... fuck no... this isn't an anime no more... this is real life...  

My life 

As a person who knows nothing to deal with these types of situations, but even still... it breaks my heart... I was always a carrying person. I knew Saya since she was young... living in such rich lifestyle she didn't have privacy, every now then people only looked at her because of her family name and not her real self, to have so many criticisms by people who don't even know her, not having the ability to socialize with others, she even fears about both disappointing her family and doesn't want to burden it, and the times where her birthdays were so.. sad...