Meeting the Millers

|24| Selfish

You know what I love the most about hospitals?

They give you a break from the outside world and you don't have to interact with other people. You get to sleep all day without having to worry about school and lastly you don't have to take care of yourself because they do it for you. When I woke up the first thing I noticed was my phone charging beside me, then as I sat up I noticed that my dad wasn't here..... June was

"June?" I say surprised

She sits up, "Hey"

I frown, "Your dad probably figured that you'd wanna speak with the doctor alone..... but he asked me to come"

Is it weird that I don't mind her being here?

I sit back, "Don't you have school?"

"Yeah... but I care about you more"

I nod slowly, "C I'm sorry for believing what Eliza said" She suddenly says

"I just don't understand why you'd think that I'd ever say something about you and how you look....."

"It's just, you were becoming so close with Zoe and Sienna...- which believe me I know isn't a good excuse. But I did occasionally have those thoughts that maybe you liked them a little more, so when Eliza told me that... I sort of just went away" She says the last part quietly

"I was getting closer with them but that doesn't change the fact that I've been close with you for longer J" I say softly

We actually became friends in kindergarten, then our moms realised that we were both Spanish and that's what made them become friends, plus the fact that they like the same things. The only difference is that Junes mom is way more nicer than mine and I absolutely love her to death.... Not that I don't love my own

She half smiles, "I know that now"

"Good"

"So.... When did you relapse?"

"Probably two months before we stopped talking"

She raises her eyebrows before scoffing, "So a year ago?"

I nod as the door opens and doctor Gomez walks in, "How do you feel Carmen?"

I tuck a hair behind my ear, "Like the total opposite of dizzy" I say amused

He smiles, "That's good to hear"

He then puts down his clipboard, "I'd like to ask a couple of questions if that's ok with you"

I look back at June and she nods, I sigh. "Yeah sure ok"

"How much time would you say you spend exercising?"

"It kind of depends"

"On what?"

"How much I've eaten that day" I reply

He narrows his eyes, "Would you say that you push yourself more if you've eaten more than one meal?"

I shrug one shoulder. "Yeah, or if I feel like shit that day"

Dr Gomez sits up, "What's you caloric intake?"

"Six hundred, eight hundred max"

June narrows her eyes as he scribbles something down onto the clipboard, "I had the chance to speak with both of your parents this morning"

"About what?"

"They've been looking into a few eating disorder facilities-

I scoff, "What?"