ONISM- the awareness of how the little the world you experience
"Shawn don't you dare run away from me!"
I gasped as Shawn ran quickly. I stopped due to panting and placed my both palms above my knees. Nakayuko akong pinagmasdan si Shawn na parang batang nabigyan ng candies dahil sa malaking ngiti na nakapinta sa kanyang mukha habang winawagway sa hangin ang tumbler ko.
After the conversation earlier, I was surprised when he instantly grabbed my tumbler and ran so that I could chase him. He was acting like a kid and maybe... because of his attitude, my affection towards him grew little by little in every second passed.
Ako lang ba nakakaramdam na kapag naging immature si Shawn nagiging cute siya? Oo. Ako lang talaga. Wala e, he made me feel ease for everything.
Whenever I'm in state of confusion, Shawn's always there to alleviate the serenity. Sino pa bang aayaw sa isang katulad niya? He is hard to resist.
Napasandal ako sa malaking puno na nakatayo sa gilid ng kalsada. Hinihingal pa rin ako at sumasakit ang paa ko. While I'm currently massaging my lower leg, I sat on the big root of the tree and closed my eyes for a while.
No one mind if I took this calmness for instance. This disposition made me feel at ease away from the toxic mindsets of human beings. I won't let myself waste this given moment. Kasi kahit ngayon lang hahayaan ko ang aking sariling hindi iisipin kung saan ako lulugar.
Kahit ngayon lang hindi ko iisipin kung paano ko mapupunan ang mga kulang. Kahit ngayon lang ipauubaya ko muna yung pagiging sapat para sa lahat.
Is it selfish when I will choose to run away from them? Magiging makasarili ba ako kung pipiliin kong maging malaya? Am I too naive to undergo the misery? I'm living in an illusion anyways, so why am I bothered?
Yet everything is unknown. Either you convince yourself to choose a right path or uncertainty selects a better journey that isn't suitable if you already knew that you're too coward to take a step.
Natatakot kang magpatuloy kasi maiisip mo kung ano ang mga posibleng mangyari sa hinaharap. The thought of being weak person was hitherto planted in your mind that's why you are afraid to try.
"Kung 'di ako ang iniisip mo, wag ka nalang mag isip." I opened my eyes and turned a gaze on my side. Inilagay niya ang dalawang palad sa likod ng kanyang ulo habang nakasandal sa puno. Nakasandal din ang tumbler ko sa tiyan niya.
"Pagod ka na?" he asked.
" A bit. " Hindi ba halata? Syempre pagod na ako kaya nga napasandal na ako sa puno diba? But instead nagging him, I just answered.
"Magpahinga ka muna sa akin Dayana." I tried to compose myself but still I was distracted by his words. Shawn's behavior made my heart beats faster.
Dumaan ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin ni Shawn. There's nothing more peaceful than capturing the exceptional view of calmness together with someone you never expect to stay. It's a one-of-a-kind moment you want to treasure and keep this last longer. I rather want to be alone with someone because I never found a companion that was so sincere as solitariness.
What a lovely surprise when a man like him somehow made me discover how the loneliness can be unlonely. It seems that there's a tremendous difference between alone and lonely.
It's weird to be afraid of being lonely but desired to be alone with him. Kasi kapag kasama ko siya, payapa ang puso ko. It feels like I was thrown off the chain of prejudice. Malaya akong sumubok, umiyak at higit sa lahat maging masaya.
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Run Away From The Crowd (COMPLETED)
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